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im so bored ive just been staring off thinking for the pat like, 2 hours. i realize im really starting to miss the old days. like just a year or two or three back. i walked into WA a few weeks ago and just smelling that place made me hate life.
but maybe i got so pissed cus i miss it. i miss making fun of people i kinda know but dont. and i miss all the boys i used to talk to that would make me laugh and let me sit with them at lunch. i miss skipping lunch and going into merediths car to get high. i miss ALT - ED just cus it was the most entertaining thing ever. in fitchburg i dont have things to do or people to see or friends houses to walk to. theres a level 3 sex offender on my street and i dont wanna walk anywhere. i like fitchburg but i miss westford. they have deer there.
ive been screwing up so much too. i have to go to court on the 29th and the 31st. two different reasons but 7 charges against me. im not bad judge, i swear. maybe just slap my ass 7 times with a flat piece of wood and i wont do it again? or, yeah i would. Sometimes I think you have to march right in and demand your rights, even if you don't know what your rights are, or who the person is you're talking to. Then on the way out, slam the door.
i do like visiting old peoples houses though. like, yeah it smells funny, but everything there from buttons to text is oversized. it makes me feel like im in a fun house. and you know what, im having fun.
but maybe i got so pissed cus i miss it. i miss making fun of people i kinda know but dont. and i miss all the boys i used to talk to that would make me laugh and let me sit with them at lunch. i miss skipping lunch and going into merediths car to get high. i miss ALT - ED just cus it was the most entertaining thing ever. in fitchburg i dont have things to do or people to see or friends houses to walk to. theres a level 3 sex offender on my street and i dont wanna walk anywhere. i like fitchburg but i miss westford. they have deer there.
ive been screwing up so much too. i have to go to court on the 29th and the 31st. two different reasons but 7 charges against me. im not bad judge, i swear. maybe just slap my ass 7 times with a flat piece of wood and i wont do it again? or, yeah i would. Sometimes I think you have to march right in and demand your rights, even if you don't know what your rights are, or who the person is you're talking to. Then on the way out, slam the door.
i do like visiting old peoples houses though. like, yeah it smells funny, but everything there from buttons to text is oversized. it makes me feel like im in a fun house. and you know what, im having fun.