don't respond if you REALLY have nothing to say.

[when_sparks_fly]

honestly, if you say something that says NOTHING, I'm just going to delete your comment anyway. So, just don't say anything at all if its going to be random and out of place...

so. i don't know what to do.

i don't feel content here.
but. i'm not sure i'll feel content anywhere else either.

do i take that chance and transfer? or do i stay where i am, where, i know i'm not completely at ease, but at least i know my surroundings somewhat now.

i'm afraid.
i wish i just feel good where i was.
instead of like an outsider in a city that used to make me feel so happy.
i hate it.

i can't stand feeling like this.
but what if i move?
i have no one to live with there, anymore.
i thought i did, but apparently i was completely mistaken.

now. i just don't know.
everyone seems to be doing so well.
and i'm just...floating along unhappy and unsteady.

i really just want to feel like i belong like it was in sac.

what if i suck at living there too?
what if i just. don't fit in like i think i will?

and what if, by living by myself, now that i know that's what i'm going to have to do,
what if i just don't meet anybody and become even more isolated than i am now.
i'll hate it.

and the idea of maybe not finding a place for me AGAIN,
kills me inside.