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Journal Last Updated 62 Weeks ago.
wow.
in a sort of silly way i have only been on aim like.... 5 times in the past year too...
i guess i am slowly loosing my computer dependence with exception to use it for school
Just like everyone else it seems i have ignored my journal - - i put it down for the summer and then neglected it for a full semester.
SINCE my last update - -
I have been dating "this kid joe" for over a year now and we recently got an apartment together in Ansonia
The living together thing goes AMAZING sometimes and really fucking sucks other times
I have had heart surgery - - i Dropped out of UMASS
and i am now going to school at the University of New Haven - -
My life has had some rediculous ups and downs and right now i am at a down... (funny seems like thats the only time i have anything to write about.)
Joe and i got into a fight the weekend before last and it was huge - - i had to leave the house and go sit in a park for a few hours to calm down and he said some things to me that really hurt me and i havent quite gotten over them yet. Since this argument we have been on each others nerves ( this is when living together sucks).
The reason why i picked this damn journal up is because we got into another fight last night over the first fight and i was so pissed off (and it was late at night and i couldnt leave the apartment) that i wrote myself an email just Venting ( i have an iphone now BTW so i did it from bed)
I left my computer on and i have IGOOGLE and joe went to get on the computer and he happened to notice that i wrote myself an email and took it upon himself to read it... he then got VERY upset because of what i wrote
IN MY DEFENSE i write things when i am angry - - i vent to MYSELF whereas when he gets angry he decides to say every hurtful thing you can imagine to my face....
.... which somehow he feels is better then me writing it to myself because somehow that consitutes as "talking shit"
UGHHH fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
so here i am writing to my live Journal again because i dont have any privacy even in the confines of my own email inbox.
LUCKY for me joe has no interest in anything computer involved (generally) and would never in a million years thing that i have a livejournal none the less go looking for it.
-sigh-
I just burned the blueberry muffins i was making and now have to go to the store to get more so that i can prove to myself that i am not a complete fuckup at life
wow.
in a sort of silly way i have only been on aim like.... 5 times in the past year too...
i guess i am slowly loosing my computer dependence with exception to use it for school
Just like everyone else it seems i have ignored my journal - - i put it down for the summer and then neglected it for a full semester.
SINCE my last update - -
I have been dating "this kid joe" for over a year now and we recently got an apartment together in Ansonia
The living together thing goes AMAZING sometimes and really fucking sucks other times
I have had heart surgery - - i Dropped out of UMASS
and i am now going to school at the University of New Haven - -
My life has had some rediculous ups and downs and right now i am at a down... (funny seems like thats the only time i have anything to write about.)
Joe and i got into a fight the weekend before last and it was huge - - i had to leave the house and go sit in a park for a few hours to calm down and he said some things to me that really hurt me and i havent quite gotten over them yet. Since this argument we have been on each others nerves ( this is when living together sucks).
The reason why i picked this damn journal up is because we got into another fight last night over the first fight and i was so pissed off (and it was late at night and i couldnt leave the apartment) that i wrote myself an email just Venting ( i have an iphone now BTW so i did it from bed)
I left my computer on and i have IGOOGLE and joe went to get on the computer and he happened to notice that i wrote myself an email and took it upon himself to read it... he then got VERY upset because of what i wrote
IN MY DEFENSE i write things when i am angry - - i vent to MYSELF whereas when he gets angry he decides to say every hurtful thing you can imagine to my face....
.... which somehow he feels is better then me writing it to myself because somehow that consitutes as "talking shit"
UGHHH fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
so here i am writing to my live Journal again because i dont have any privacy even in the confines of my own email inbox.
LUCKY for me joe has no interest in anything computer involved (generally) and would never in a million years thing that i have a livejournal none the less go looking for it.
-sigh-
I just burned the blueberry muffins i was making and now have to go to the store to get more so that i can prove to myself that i am not a complete fuckup at life