i know this a bit of a cliched theme

[when_it_hit]

but i want out

why do we wrap ourselves up in insignificant arguments
and trying to prove we are so the originals

im caustic
i swear

maybe im masochistic
i mean i want to be a high school teacher
which means dwelling in the same drama for years
revisiting the beautiful atrocity that was my adolecent years

maybe i want to help kids get out
cathcer in the rye moment

i find it sad that i pray to be truly liked by people
i mean, not just at a face value
to have someone earnestly have be, not a crutch but a rail

why cant i just settle for superficial
why cant i just partake in the drama
why cant i just love someone
seriously
i am inadequate

sure
i dont mind you can all look down at me now
note that i ahve shrunken
i hope you are having fun
im just going to find my way through the forest

i hate preconcived notions
i hate it when people think i hate them
it just makes me more frustrated at them
which is making i had to love them
damn it
judgement is ok to a degree but please
learn that you will waste your life building walls
and when the people you trusted escaped
you learn there were so many good people just on the other side

i miss innocence
ahhhsadf;lkjdfsal;

fuck
end

this isnt what normal high school people do
they just have it stuck in their head