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I have had NO time for updates...I keep thinking that I need to just sit down and do it!
Morgan is moving in very very soon. I am *so* relieved about this. Rob has decided that he does not want to be a dad anymore. His exact words were that he grits his teeth when Morgan walks into a room. He is not sure whether he hates her because she is a part of me, or if it's something else. He told me he is questioning whether or not he ever wanted to have a baby. I told him it was about five years too late for that question. *sigh* what an idiot. I wonder how long it will take before he wakes up and realizes that he's just given up the most precious thing he will ever have; the love of a child.
My heart still hurts about that. I can't stand that my tender little four year old has to now face the fact that daddy doesn't want to see her on any kind of scheduled or regular basis...or maybe even ever again. Although...oddly, Rob didn't care about holidays, but he did want us all to do something on her birthday....that just seems very odd to me.
In other news...Work is going well. I am finally in CS. Which is really good. I won't see the raise or the benies until they choose to roll me over from VOLT, but it costs them more to keep me employed with VOLT then it does to hire me, so I'm hoping for the hiring soon.
Things with Ryan and I are going swimmingly. Living here has been really nice. I feel like he and I have really taken things to the next level, and it feels really wonderful. I love that man.
Morgan is moving in very very soon. I am *so* relieved about this. Rob has decided that he does not want to be a dad anymore. His exact words were that he grits his teeth when Morgan walks into a room. He is not sure whether he hates her because she is a part of me, or if it's something else. He told me he is questioning whether or not he ever wanted to have a baby. I told him it was about five years too late for that question. *sigh* what an idiot. I wonder how long it will take before he wakes up and realizes that he's just given up the most precious thing he will ever have; the love of a child.
My heart still hurts about that. I can't stand that my tender little four year old has to now face the fact that daddy doesn't want to see her on any kind of scheduled or regular basis...or maybe even ever again. Although...oddly, Rob didn't care about holidays, but he did want us all to do something on her birthday....that just seems very odd to me.
In other news...Work is going well. I am finally in CS. Which is really good. I won't see the raise or the benies until they choose to roll me over from VOLT, but it costs them more to keep me employed with VOLT then it does to hire me, so I'm hoping for the hiring soon.
Things with Ryan and I are going swimmingly. Living here has been really nice. I feel like he and I have really taken things to the next level, and it feels really wonderful. I love that man.