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“If death meant just leaving the stage long enough to change costume and come back as a new character...Would you slow down? Or speed up?”
Hormones may be speaking on my behalf now, but I wish I could rewind September and relive it again. Every moment, different. For the first time this year, and after a long, long time, I am feeling pangs of regrets.
Yet, my heart feels so cold. Dead, albeit in an almost Zen-like manner.
Humans fail to amuse me anymore. Real-life dramas are like badly set up scenes in B-grade tv series: replayed, recycled, reused. A lot of silly things said today, none moved me. A lot of mean words spewed over the last 5 days, some stabbed. Along with the sigh I heaved, I know the itch on this wound will pass.
Those, too, shall pass.
In the moment, an implosion seemed inevitable. In the moment, one clings only to the familiar. Maybe, that’s the only thing one can do, really.
We are so weak.
Tonight, tonight….I grapple to see the big picture.
Oh, how I miss those familiar things.
She told me, maybe you may not want to see the big picture, really. Or you may. Depending on how much you want to realise how common everything is.
Maybe. Just maybe.
Hormones may be speaking on my behalf now, but I wish I could rewind September and relive it again. Every moment, different. For the first time this year, and after a long, long time, I am feeling pangs of regrets.
Yet, my heart feels so cold. Dead, albeit in an almost Zen-like manner.
Humans fail to amuse me anymore. Real-life dramas are like badly set up scenes in B-grade tv series: replayed, recycled, reused. A lot of silly things said today, none moved me. A lot of mean words spewed over the last 5 days, some stabbed. Along with the sigh I heaved, I know the itch on this wound will pass.
Those, too, shall pass.
In the moment, an implosion seemed inevitable. In the moment, one clings only to the familiar. Maybe, that’s the only thing one can do, really.
We are so weak.
Tonight, tonight….I grapple to see the big picture.
Oh, how I miss those familiar things.
She told me, maybe you may not want to see the big picture, really. Or you may. Depending on how much you want to realise how common everything is.
Maybe. Just maybe.