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So it's two o'clock and i just finished my paper. I really have no idea if it is any good or not. I wont know until i read over it tomorrow.
I dont know why i picked the topic i did. I won't get into what it is (boring), but suffice it to say that it was really abstract and i knew it was going to be really hard to actually write a paper on it. I can't figure out why i do stuff like that. I don't know if it is to actually challenge myself, or if it is just to make my shit stand out from people who pick obviously easy topics.
Maybe it is just to screw myself. I dont know, but sometimes i think that it would be nice to fail at something having to do with school. Something that i actually tried my hardest at but still couldn't do. I don't want to fail something that i wasn't prepared for or didn't put effort into. I kind of want to fail at something that i know i am good at (like sociology or philosophy) and actually put effort into, but i just fail because i couldn't do it.
Is it weird that i think that might actually be reassuring?
I dont know why i picked the topic i did. I won't get into what it is (boring), but suffice it to say that it was really abstract and i knew it was going to be really hard to actually write a paper on it. I can't figure out why i do stuff like that. I don't know if it is to actually challenge myself, or if it is just to make my shit stand out from people who pick obviously easy topics.
Maybe it is just to screw myself. I dont know, but sometimes i think that it would be nice to fail at something having to do with school. Something that i actually tried my hardest at but still couldn't do. I don't want to fail something that i wasn't prepared for or didn't put effort into. I kind of want to fail at something that i know i am good at (like sociology or philosophy) and actually put effort into, but i just fail because i couldn't do it.
Is it weird that i think that might actually be reassuring?