2 - Forever's Not So Long, Stop Moping

[whatuhhh]

My (not so?)conspicuous absense from LJ was brought about by a number of factors. Part of it was that I needed to be able to write about stuff that I knew I couldn't. Part of it was writer's block. Part of it was being both too busy and not busy enough.

The summary of the time since my last real post in nachos1215 features the following major events -

• I moved out of the house with Meghan, Marisa, Blev, and Lauren a while ago. I moved into The Ocho for a while, but got kicked out either because Jamie couldn't stand me after Nicole and I had been hanging out or because there wasn't enough space in the giant, three-floor house. I was living at home for a month, but I'm now living with Brad and eventually Phil in an apartment complex right near the practice field. It's going to be a better situation.
  
• Mary and I broke up, didn't see each other for a few weeks, tried to work things out, and have now broken up for good. Because of the way things happened, she told me that she hopes I die alone and that I'm incapable of love or doing anything good. It's pretty much the status quo for a breakup for me. Even when I try to figure out how to not hurt anyone, it rarely works out that way. I think a lot of people hate me and want me dead, but there isn't anything I can do about that.
  
• The big reason why Mary and other people are so upset is because I told her that I was attracted to someone else, and when Mary told me that she'd cut me out of her life if I started seeing someone else, I went ahead and did it anyways. It was part of me freaking out at Mary just showing up at my house one evening ("accidentally" driving down there, according to her). She just wanted to talk, but I thought she was spying or stalking me, which freaked me out, so I made things with Ang official much earlier than I was planning on.
  
• Ang, or youneedlove, is my amazing new lady-type. Our friend Kimmy brought her to a 10° show, and we ended up hanging out once or twice, and just really hit it off. She's pretty much the best thing ever.
  
• My car died a while ago, at 330 in the morning coming home from Ypsi. I was getting by using Jackie's mother's car, and then my brother's, but as of tomorrow I'll have my very own, 1989 Mecury Grand Marquis. Just like my old one, except the ugly tan color instead of burgandy. The air doesn't work, and I guess it needs a muffler and new power steering, but I'm just happy to have a car to call my own again.
  
• My parents are getting a divorce. I've known for a long time that it would happen eventually, since my mother told me seven years ago or more that she didn't love my father, but I'm not sure if I'm ready to deal with that yet.

I need to go to work now. Perhaps more will come later.

-Jeremy