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[whattheytellyou]

Mark Hoffman told me the world is going to end if I don't stay with Amanda, but I have to pee and I'm really hungry.

[And that is where she has been for the past 24 hours. Sitting in Amanda's room. Panicking.]

[Added Later:]Nevermind. I'm okay now

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[creatingalegacy]

Do you want me to come to the bathroom and dining hall with you? I wouldn't care if the world ended as long as you ceased to exist with me, but you seem scared and I don't fucking like that! I don't want you to be scared.

[whattheytellyou]

I don't want the world to end because I'm terrified of dying. I have a massive survival instinct.

He said I have to stay with you. He didn't say I could take you with me anywhere. I don't know what to do. I'm so frightened that I might make the world end. I don't want that responsibility on my shoulders, even if there's no one left to blame me.

But I have to pee so bad and I can't do it with you watching.

[creatingalegacy]

You can't be scared, because I'm starting to look to you as some kind of leader to me and John was never scared. I don't know how to deal with that and I think I'd wind up scared, too.

If I go to the bathroom and dining hall, and you followed me, then it would still be staying with me, wouldn't it? Technically. I'm good at finding and clinging to loopholes, it's how I justify most of the shit I've done here.

I can close my eyes, Sarah, christ!

[whattheytellyou]

I have to ask Hoffman. He's the one who said the world would end. He would know if there are loopholes, right?

Oh god. I don't want to destroy the world.

[creatingalegacy]

You don't need to ask Hoffman! It's a loophole. Loopholes exist to be taken advantage of.

[whattheytellyou]

But what if there isn't a loophole? What if we leave and the world ends?

What if we get separated? I don't want to risk it. It's too big.

[creatingalegacy]

It's definitely a fucking loophole! If you don't use the bathroom you could end up with a bladder infection. Do you really want that? They're fucking painful.

What if we tie our wrists together with about three feet of slack? I can still close my eyes.

[expectremorse]

The world's not going to fucking end!

[He does not know how much more of this he can take.]

You two can just-go do whatever it is you want to fucking do!

[whattheytellyou]

But you said the world was going to end! You told me yesterday!

[expectremorse]

I was trying to get you the fuck away from me! It was a fucking expression! A figure of speech! I didn't MEAN anything by it!

[He is rapidly losing his temper with this.] It was an offhanded remark, you weren't supposed to take it seriously.

[whattheytellyou]

...You lied to me?

[expectremorse]

[Oh man. She trusted him. But it was a flood.]

I did not fucking lie to you!

[whattheytellyou]

You said the world was going to end, but it wasn't.

[expectremorse]

It was an expression! It was a figure of fucking speech!

[whattheytellyou]

I don't understand!

[expectremorse]

Just stop it! STOP IT! You're going to understand later right? That's what's important. You're going to understand fucking later so shut the fuck up about it! I fucked up! end of story!