stupid pharmaceuticals
so yeah, had my lingual tonsils and adenoids removed. then got an infection that made me smell like a rotting carcass. spent three days in the hospital getting iv antibiotics. missed some school. got back and got an email saying i couldn't go to class due to my tuition not being paid for. so i missed another day of class. now i'm back and fine except for the fact that i started back on strattera and am already feeling the side effects of it. hence, why i'm up at 430 in the morning updating my journal. i had a very vivid and realistic dream that was very... odd. so here i be. looked at porn before bed; it's already fucking with my sex life. i have a new friend, Bryan. we went to pigeon forge saturday. he told me online after we got back that he thinks he likes me. i told him not to. that while i may seem like a good guy; i'm really not, because i like to play too much. which for all intensive purposes is true. this split second reaction to someone i initially thought could be more than a friend made me start reevaluating. Keegan said i should get over his not being a Christian. (who by the way, quit jcp sunday and is coming to work with me.) even if i were to get over that i don't know what to do. i don't particularly want to date anyone, i came to realize. i do for the sake of having a reliable sex partner and someone to just hang out with. i don't, however, want the headache of keeping in touch, going out, etc. if gym guy wants to hookup, and i'm free... then i want to do it without having to worry about hurting someone's feelings or whatever.
Charlie, i'm afraid, i am losing. he is to be moving to chattanooga with Patrick the first of october. i already told him "i told you so" for when things don't work out with Patrick. i just think it is a silly idea to move to another city with someone you've only known for two months. not my cup of tea, personally. we've resolved to not loose contact with each other this time. we had better not.
i'm like the wind, you see. you can't cage up the wind and make it your own.
Charlie, i'm afraid, i am losing. he is to be moving to chattanooga with Patrick the first of october. i already told him "i told you so" for when things don't work out with Patrick. i just think it is a silly idea to move to another city with someone you've only known for two months. not my cup of tea, personally. we've resolved to not loose contact with each other this time. we had better not.
i'm like the wind, you see. you can't cage up the wind and make it your own.