i have been lying to myself for too long
okay so i just went and read over one of my previous entries. the one about how i have no one here to talk about, that i can only talk to Jen and Kelsey. well i have been thinking about that alot lately, and thats not true. all these years of being friends with Kelsey, i can tell her things, but its really a one way kinda thing. she feels that she can tell me anything in the world, but i dont feel the same way towards her. i dont feel that i can confront her about anything, i dont feel comfortable talking to her about certain subjects, and it sucks. i love her to death, but its just hard not having the same trust level with someone who has sucha a high one with you..
as far as Jen goes....she is amazing. i dont know where the hell i would be without her. we have definatly kept in better touch so far since camps have ended, and i intend to keep it this way. i really miss her though. i really hope she moves to FL. not because she has to though, i hope she moves to FL by her own choice..i have never met anyone like her. she really is just an awesome person..all around. i get to see her next month :) september 8th to be exact, at Night Of Joy :) im excited for that.
anyways. school starts in a few days :( bleh..not looking forward to that at all.. tomorrow i start work..bleh. kind of looking forward to that but not sure yet.il'l let you know tomorrow when i get home lol. but for now, i am going to bed..i really need to start getting normal hours of sleep because im going to be really worn out for school if i dont. on sunday, i swear im going to bed at like 8pm lol il'l update tomorrow after work.
as far as Jen goes....she is amazing. i dont know where the hell i would be without her. we have definatly kept in better touch so far since camps have ended, and i intend to keep it this way. i really miss her though. i really hope she moves to FL. not because she has to though, i hope she moves to FL by her own choice..i have never met anyone like her. she really is just an awesome person..all around. i get to see her next month :) september 8th to be exact, at Night Of Joy :) im excited for that.
anyways. school starts in a few days :( bleh..not looking forward to that at all.. tomorrow i start work..bleh. kind of looking forward to that but not sure yet.il'l let you know tomorrow when i get home lol. but for now, i am going to bed..i really need to start getting normal hours of sleep because im going to be really worn out for school if i dont. on sunday, i swear im going to bed at like 8pm lol il'l update tomorrow after work.