Jan 25, 2006 02:36
what the fuck am i doing?
the only thing i know that is great in my life is my girlfriend.
i do not know where i would be or what i would be doing right now without her.
things would be bad.
i feel so unstable, and i feel as if my unstability could affect her stability.
we are not supposed to know ourselves at 21, it takes a lifetime to understand life, the wants are everchanging, yet it is the needs that are truly important, morals, family, friends...they all lie in a category that has been pushed aside it seems. i like to learn life lessons. i like when i can think in a totally different way then i had ever thought before, like when you think you got the world down and people figured out, and then you realize one day how wrong you had been and ignorant for not seeing the truth behind it all. you almost become a new person.
although my memory is not as it once was, i am glad to have had a livejournal to keep track of events that occurred since 2001, i wish i could care less about money, maybe some more on just having a good time, though, this is walled lake, the things that i did then are not the things i do now. well at least not the way i do now.
today was 81 degrees in port charlotte florida, where aaron lives. if the damn superbowl wasn't here in detroit, the prices wouldn't be so jacked up for flying or riding a train.
maybe i just need to work again, march is not coming fast enough and even with that, my dad wants me to come down to alabama and go with him on the truck for a little while, good timing right as the golf course is gonna be opening up.
and that's enough, cause if i get rid of everything on here, i will have nothing to put on it later. so i am gonna finish chatting with beth, the keeper of my sanity and the only real reason i have to wake up and put pants on in the morning, though i am sure she would not mind me without them. love you baby.