I can't feel the same about you anymore...
Wow, im so lucky! no confrontation!!! wow!! kay just said sorry about the 'carter business' and that was that...wow im so happy :) lol. Stuck makin cds for john and ma mum...oh well at least i get free cds outta it! lol.
The day was weird...started gd when i got some more comments frm carter on ma pics on myspace...then it went strange cos i was tlkin 2 duncan and he just depressed me so much...he cut himself and carved his dads name into his legs twice. his dad died from a blood clot in his leg and i just felt so bad for him. He kept saying i miss my dad, i miss him so much, i hate god for killing my dad. It really got to me...i ended up telling Carter cos i just didnt no what to say, i was just sat there crying my eyes out for him, i didnt know what it was like for my dad to die but i do know wht its like to feel so depressed that you want to cut yourself and i really felt for him. So i told Carter and he told me all this really nice stuff to say to him to help him feel better and it worked cos he promised to try and stop self-harming. Then i confessed to Carter that i'd self-harmed before...i was really nervous of what his reaction was gonna be like...but he said he had as well. I felt relieved but intrigued to know why. He said he used to get bullied at school and his dad used to hit him and beat him when he was little over something little like sneezing or spilling his dinner. He hasn't seen his dad in five years. We had a massive heart to heart about all our problems, and after it all i felt so much better it was like a massive weight had been lifted off my back, i briefly told him all about the shitty holiday and everything basically that i could only normally ever tell Kat...
i'm really missing kat i really need to talk to her so badly...its been so hard not having her here to talk to, she really can't go on holiday again!!!
Got Nirvana t-shirt today! :) wow lol i love it...my mum hates it...meh..who cares what she thinks...
I feel today has been a kinda break-through i've managed to get in touch with myself properly and i feel better about it, still missin the wondrous Kat tho! Hurry up and get back to England missy!!!
That's enough writin for me Kez x x x
The day was weird...started gd when i got some more comments frm carter on ma pics on myspace...then it went strange cos i was tlkin 2 duncan and he just depressed me so much...he cut himself and carved his dads name into his legs twice. his dad died from a blood clot in his leg and i just felt so bad for him. He kept saying i miss my dad, i miss him so much, i hate god for killing my dad. It really got to me...i ended up telling Carter cos i just didnt no what to say, i was just sat there crying my eyes out for him, i didnt know what it was like for my dad to die but i do know wht its like to feel so depressed that you want to cut yourself and i really felt for him. So i told Carter and he told me all this really nice stuff to say to him to help him feel better and it worked cos he promised to try and stop self-harming. Then i confessed to Carter that i'd self-harmed before...i was really nervous of what his reaction was gonna be like...but he said he had as well. I felt relieved but intrigued to know why. He said he used to get bullied at school and his dad used to hit him and beat him when he was little over something little like sneezing or spilling his dinner. He hasn't seen his dad in five years. We had a massive heart to heart about all our problems, and after it all i felt so much better it was like a massive weight had been lifted off my back, i briefly told him all about the shitty holiday and everything basically that i could only normally ever tell Kat...
i'm really missing kat i really need to talk to her so badly...its been so hard not having her here to talk to, she really can't go on holiday again!!!
Got Nirvana t-shirt today! :) wow lol i love it...my mum hates it...meh..who cares what she thinks...
I feel today has been a kinda break-through i've managed to get in touch with myself properly and i feel better about it, still missin the wondrous Kat tho! Hurry up and get back to England missy!!!
That's enough writin for me Kez x x x