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I have noticed something often reflected in my fic, Cas becoming human.
I think partly it is because I desperately wanted that out of Season six. Why would I want Cas to be human? I think he might be able to be happy. I know it seems to weird to say. "Oh yes rip everything away that makes him know and understand and make him happy?" but here is the thing. Cas is NOT happy as an Angel anymore, and look what happened. Now he is all psychotic. With Cas it was always bound to be extremes. Whether it be Future!Cas from The End, or God!Cas jacked up on souls, or on drugs and women and alcohol.
Cas needs a grounder.
Heaven is no longer it. It hasn't been for a long time.
The one thing that holds him down, keeps him sane, makes him smile, makes him understand the world is Dean. Yeah Dean and the rest of them were completely shitty to him in Season Six. I mean, I adore Dean but wow. Anyway. The truth is Dean still needs him, and will take him back into his life. If Cas would accept that. Dean is Cas' truth. He doesn't know anything else and when he tries, well..the end of Season Six happens.
So a lot of the things I write are because in my head canon Cas becomes human. He lets go of it all and let's Dean take care of him. In my head canon Dean is truly sorry, and so are Sam and Bobby.
I will try to add more variety, and no one has complained except my insecurities. LOL. I have a neat idea on the drawing board if I can get it out right. Something way different than what I have written, although doubtfully different from others.
Someday I would like to attempt a real chaptered fic that I share with everyone, but that will be far, far down the road. I do better at short, concise ideas.
Thank you to everyone who is encouraging me so hard with my writing.
Anyway a few thoughts on why I write some of the things I do, on Cas and Dean, and just a thank you again.
♥ to all.