in a rut...
i feel like im in a rut and i dont really understand why...i had a good weekend...i mean fri after rehearsal i went to the burrito bar which was pretty fun and kristen and i had fun watching saved the last dance and having a sleep over...and i had a ton of fun in city at arriba arriba with kristen, kristen, veronica, meg, pat, becca, sherri and everyone...including xander(funny i know)..i had a good time at seans afterwards as well...anyways i had a great weekend but right now im in such a shitty mood and i have no idea why...i knowim stressed by all the work i have to do and im worried about doing well...and i feel like this work stops me from seeing all my friends as much as i want...and i dunno i miss them in a weird way...so now im stressed and feel this weird lonliness..andi dunno my love life is a joke...i need to realize that flirting doesnt mean anything and that i will not ever find an actual relationship art wagner..its not meant to be so i should stop expecting...i dunno i just dont know whats wrong with me...