*I just need to keep you in mind, as something larger than life*

[whats_wrong_wme]

Ok, its time for yet again another mushy journal of me whining about whats going on with douche bag...aka, jamie. i dont understand what the hell is going on with! i really dont. one day hes like ok i dont want to talk to you until u are ungrounded cuz of all the bullshit that ive done and then we talked like 2 times and then now hes back to being a douche bag and i dont understand. I really dont. i want to be with him so much, i gave up so much for him, broken ties with people for him, done pretty much everything he wanted and hes being like this. i dont understand. there are so many people that disagree with me and him being together that its unreal but no what do i do, i am with him anyways just because i love him and hes being like this. i cant tell you how many fights i got into my mom with over him cuz she didnt want me to be with him again and i fought it out with her until the end over it all just to be with him and hes going to be like this? i dont get it i really dont! does someone have an answer for me?!?!? why is it i always stick with the assholes and then get rid of the nice and good ones. when me and jamie broke up, i had a good boy, one i cared about alot and i fucked it up by getting back with jamie. (If you see this, which you wont but i want to say im sorry for it all) and now i hardly talk to him cuz we are going our seperate ways cuz of all the bullshit ive pulled.

so about all the bullshit ive pulled. im no longer going to rehab i guess. my mom said now i dont need it. so i guess thats a plus. i didnt want to go there anyways. but yeah im off grounding now thank god. 17 and im still getting grounded. what the fuck is wrong with that picture??!?!?!?! haha

well im outta here...