Jun 10, 2005 11:15
Lately life has been absolutely nuts! its riduculous. it all started last thursday when my mom called me and she thought i was tripping on something and she was right and i just lied to her like crazy cuz i was busted and she was all like you better be home by 8 or your going to rehab and all this other bullshit and what not. so yeah i leave jamies house and i just keep ignoring him, (i kinda knew him and my mom were in on this together) so yeah then i go to the main street bridge and tim calls me asking me where im at cuz im all upset and shit well he ends up coming down there cuz i was really fucked up and i was all upset. i was tripping on 80 ml of oxycotton and like 3 bowl packs. it was nuts and the worst feeling in the world, i advise nobody to try and trip off that much, it sucks. so yeah then tim shows up and then MY MOM! so i started walking away and what not and then jamie pins me to a pole and i cant get away from him so i started freaking out on him cuz he wouldnt let me go. well yeah to make a longer story shorter, i went to shelly yesterday and my mom told her all of this and then she told my mom that she thinks i need to go to rehab. so i was like whatever im not going. well then i go to dinner and my mom and my aunt are double teaming me and what not so im like whatever ill fucking go to rehab just to prove to you two that im going to be clean and i can do this on my own. so im going to outpatient rehab soon. im going to get clean and then jamie my mom and my aunt are going to eat their words. its going to be so funny cuz im going to prove them wrong. so yeah jamie wont even talk to me cuz of all this bullshit and i think hes cheating on me but i have to distinct evidence and he wont talk to me so yeah...kinda sucks and it hurts so much. but im grounded until the 16th and then me and jamie will talk all this bullshit out and what not and hopefully everything will be fine between us again. i hope so! i really do i want everything to be ok with us again. thats all i want. so yeah this is really long and im going to go now and play some games...got to relieve some of the stress so im good...im out...
<3 ME