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hey there kids! i FINALLY got my computer back and its great!! im so excited..now i can be on the internet all the time again, its so much faster now too. which is another plus i guess. hehe
Well today i had to work, which was ok. i finally got trained to be a cashier. i was so nervous that i wouldnt do it right and what not but everything turned out fine i guess. it was so boring listening to jen talk for 2 1/2 hours tho. but its all worth it cuz now ill actually being doing something productive at work. i love my job tho. like i got my first pay check and i never thought i would be so excited to get a damn pay check! lol like i was before at my other job but not this excited. lol
Been thinking alot about you damn lockport kids. im starting to miss you all really bad and i want to come home but i cant. Like last night i was so sad cuz i miss everyone so much and i dont talk to half the kids from there anymore and it blows monkey balls. i never thought moving away from a town would mean loosing all your friends that you had since many years ago. but i guess its ok i still have a few of my close friends but not them all. but i still wish i could go back to 4 months ago and change somethings with my life. well shit if i could go back then i would go back to when i was born and restart. I just wish that i could have all my friends including the ones i have met here all together. like sometimes when i walk into my school i expect to see nikki standing at my locker and then i wonder why she isnt there and then i remember "dumbass you moved", and i just still think sometimes that i am in lockport and i can still see everyone. but then i rememeber that i cant and then i get all sad. ::tear:: dont get me wrong the people here are great but the one person i feel really connected to is leaving after this year she is a senior and then i have bre shes in 10th but its not the same. i want my old friends back. i never thought i would miss everyone so much. even the people i couldnt stand i miss to. lol i know that may not make sense but it is the truth. i miss everything. my dad, my brother, my friends, my family that wont talk to me cuz i moved, my dog, my cat, just everything! and i want my mom to move back so bad but i dont think she will now. well we couldnt until august but still then at least i knew we were going back and then i could have everyone again. this just sucks so bad right now. i go through stages where i am happy cuz i left and then the stages where im so sad that i did it. i feel like sometimes i left for the wrong reasons and maybe i could have stuck out my dads drinking so much for another year or so and then i woulda went to college and not had to deal with the bullshit anymore, and then the times when i know i left for the good reasons i knew i had to....idk its confusing, i guess im on an emotional rollercoaster again....well im going to go now..time to go "vent" in a little bit...later
Hey any lockport kids see this...call me sometime...8364080....
Well today i had to work, which was ok. i finally got trained to be a cashier. i was so nervous that i wouldnt do it right and what not but everything turned out fine i guess. it was so boring listening to jen talk for 2 1/2 hours tho. but its all worth it cuz now ill actually being doing something productive at work. i love my job tho. like i got my first pay check and i never thought i would be so excited to get a damn pay check! lol like i was before at my other job but not this excited. lol
Been thinking alot about you damn lockport kids. im starting to miss you all really bad and i want to come home but i cant. Like last night i was so sad cuz i miss everyone so much and i dont talk to half the kids from there anymore and it blows monkey balls. i never thought moving away from a town would mean loosing all your friends that you had since many years ago. but i guess its ok i still have a few of my close friends but not them all. but i still wish i could go back to 4 months ago and change somethings with my life. well shit if i could go back then i would go back to when i was born and restart. I just wish that i could have all my friends including the ones i have met here all together. like sometimes when i walk into my school i expect to see nikki standing at my locker and then i wonder why she isnt there and then i remember "dumbass you moved", and i just still think sometimes that i am in lockport and i can still see everyone. but then i rememeber that i cant and then i get all sad. ::tear:: dont get me wrong the people here are great but the one person i feel really connected to is leaving after this year she is a senior and then i have bre shes in 10th but its not the same. i want my old friends back. i never thought i would miss everyone so much. even the people i couldnt stand i miss to. lol i know that may not make sense but it is the truth. i miss everything. my dad, my brother, my friends, my family that wont talk to me cuz i moved, my dog, my cat, just everything! and i want my mom to move back so bad but i dont think she will now. well we couldnt until august but still then at least i knew we were going back and then i could have everyone again. this just sucks so bad right now. i go through stages where i am happy cuz i left and then the stages where im so sad that i did it. i feel like sometimes i left for the wrong reasons and maybe i could have stuck out my dads drinking so much for another year or so and then i woulda went to college and not had to deal with the bullshit anymore, and then the times when i know i left for the good reasons i knew i had to....idk its confusing, i guess im on an emotional rollercoaster again....well im going to go now..time to go "vent" in a little bit...later
Hey any lockport kids see this...call me sometime...8364080....