More depressing days at home!
As always when I am home I cannot wait to go back to school. I hate it at home!! I am learning more and more I have very few friends left in Livonia. I mean my phone hardly ever rings and I feel as though I am always the one calling people to hang out. I mean let's face it this past summer the only people that I hung out with on a regular basis were Dave, Megan, Amanda, and Melissa. Other then that there is no one. Now at Christmas break I have realized that Dave is 21 now and doesn't need to hang out with a 19 year old anymore. Amanda and Megan have become Meganda and they don't need me anymore. I haven't been called once, and when I call one of them they are always together. I guess neither Amanda and I, nor Megan and I will ever be as good of friends as we once were ever again. People change and I understand that, but I am having a hard time dealing with it right now especially because when I come home I try to forget school for awhile because honestly sometimes school annoys me. It just isn't the same anymore. Pretty much this break has sealed in the deal that I will not be coming home for the summer. I would rather be working and taking classes then living at home with no one to hang out with, but my parents.
Speaking of parents, I am so annoyed with them. I can't stand the fact that they just don't let me grow up and make my own decisions. I will decide how late I want to be out, I will decide when I think it is time to clean my room, I will decide what I want to spend the money I make on. It is just so frustrating. I also cannot stand when my dad decides to throw his fucking fits. I just wish I could tell him to shut save it, because I don't even listen when he throws his little tantrums. I thought you were supposed to grow out of throwing tantrums at like 2 years old. It didn't use to be so bad. I used to leave with friends when shit like that would happen, but as I said before I have no friends anymore.
I also have been working and I hate it. I am a fucking receptionist that does absolutely nothing. I answer the phone when it rings three times a day, and after that I read or play euchre. My life sucks right now. School needs to come sooner. Sorry for the bitch session. I guess I just wish I had friends to get me through a hard time like I used to.
BASICALLY, MY LIFE SUCKS!!!