my brain hurts.
yesterday was definitly the worst and strangest day of my entire life. it started with me waking up in matty-bo's bed, butt naked with a TURANTULA and a large hickey-like bruise on my back. i then realized that i hadn't been home in a LONG time, and that i had my parents car...but i didn't realize this until i listened to the 14 messaged my mom left me about how she called the cops on me. GREAT. so i went home to furious parents, and then left to go to class 10 minutes later, except on my way to class, which is about 100 yards from my house, i got pulled over for excessive speeding. i threw up like 2 minutes after the cop pulled me over, and i convinced him that i was pregnant and rushing home because i was sick. it totally worked.
THEN i went to the social security office to get my social security card. i filled out all the information and the lady said "this social security number you gave us doesnt exist"...okkkkkkk so they put in my name and then said "we cant give you a card because the birthday you gave us is different than the birthday we have on record for you...and your parents names are different...did you ever change your name? no? well were you adopted? ARE YOU SURE?"
IM FUCKING ADOPTED. everything is starting to make sense. its just really hard to believe that the past 20 years of my entire life has been a lie. THIS DOESNT HAPPEN IN REAL LIFE. what the fuck.
oh, and to top it off my 'parents' want to put me in a mental hospital.
and then i found out that the boy that ive been kindaaaa seeing, sorta, who im totally in love with...likes some other girl, and the girl likes his best friend- who tried to kiss me last week. normal, right? oh, and then the boy calls me to hang out...with him AND HER. i just about died.
ok.
and then after i found all of this fucking shit out, and after my best friend in the world traveled from NY to Orlando just to see me for the first time in 2 years and i just decided not to go pick her up, i met a really cute, nice boy at backstreets. we talked for a few minutes. he told me i was beautiful. then some girl walked up and he's like "just to let you know, this is my girlfriend, but we are swingers, so we both have sex with other people, at the same time or separate, so, if you're interested..." i said "are you fucking serious...i cant deal with this shit right now" and then i proceeded to accidentally put my cigarette out on my hand and haul ass out of there.
now, i have no car. i haven't been to school in 2 weeks. i have a paper due in 5 hours that i havent even started. i dont even know how old i am. my life is a fucking joke, and while i dont believe in god, im beginning to think that there is SOMEONE up there is using my life as their personal entertainment source.