it's the first of the month
it's the first time in my life that i live alone, but i guess i have had a lot of time to get to being in a house by myself or have the feeling of being alone. it's been like that since about well junior year. been more porn to being use to not speaking and finding little things to keep me amused(well if you find sleep amusing). i always have my cds too. then there is the dvds that i have. i have a lot of things to do now though with the moving thing. it's odd i didn't feel sad leaving jersey but it's something that's bothering me and i don't know what it is. it's like a i really am alone feeling, which if you really know me you would know that that is one thing i that i am the most afraid of besides being homeless and that is alone. i can deal with being alone i just hate it. i'm just the type to just deal with things if it doesn't go your way because you can't really change it.one thing i am really happy about is that i am going to college for something i always wanted to do since i was a kid and that is work with animals. i don't think i would want to do anything else. i do need a car though to get around gainesville. i just forgot how hard it is to get around in florida without a car or a parent or someone you know that has a car. i wonder how everyone else is doing i haven't really been able to talk to anyone or to say no one is returning my calls. the only one i really had a long conversation with is jamie. it's odd that we had so much to talk about but i guess it's because i haven't been able to talk to many people and my social side just started to resurface. she was a good friend too. i wish we had at least a year more to talk, i think my 2nd year would have been a little more better(not to say it wasn't amazing because it was that and more so) i also found my short story from junior year i plan to rewrite to pass the time. then there is the fact that i have made a plan just incase the world is taken over by zombies. always need to be ready for anything(could be because i have been watching too many zombie movies) they are fun to watch. i also have become more addicted to anime. they were always good but they have become more better as the years that passed by. the japanese just make us seem stupid even when they make cartoons.i should get a job but i plan on waiting til i start school to work in there student work program in there zoo. i also learned never use a metal knife to unplug a something. it's never good. at least it wasn't wet. even great people have there blonde moments.