this is a goodbye :)
Well, I finally purchased a journal today.
Nono, a real journal... one whose purpose is to actually write down my thoughts and such. Like a book. With paper.
So - I don't need this thing anymore... not that I actually post here. I think it's been about a year. I just feel that with the amount of shit that I have on here, it deserves a formal goodbye. I'll still come on from time and time again just to lurk and check up on all the people of my past, but as for a receptical of my thoughts, I'm afraid lj just isn't cutting it.
The motivation to purchase a new journal came from digging up Jeremy's old things. I was suprised when looking through his journal at how many times he mentioned my 6 year old self, and how much I remembered through his descriptions... the wonderful sensation of reliving a life with my older brother. That, and then coincidentally Lizzie, the girl whom I am currently seeing, whipped her old journal out, and read a few passages - a few that included myself from three years ago (that was when I was doing Big Love - fuck!) - I realized that there is a lot of cathartic value to this whole journal thing, and being able to sort my thoughts out in such a way might prove interesting.
For the dwindling few who still frequent lj yet I haven't managed to keep a contact, here's a nutshell of what my life has come to as of so far:
I graduated! (yay) But I really don't think that SJSU was ever the place for me, nor did it give me all of the actor-info that I wanted for a successful career. Though I've still been acting consistantly, now getting paid (albeit pennies) for my time and services, I still want that extra little step to help me get where I want to be. So, I've thrown myself back into the MFA process, this time with a renewed vigor and determination! Also, I've come to realize the reality of shallowness within my current profession, noting that looks really do help you go far. So, because of this, I have gone on a craaazzzy workout regiment, going to the gym at least 5 times a week and adhering to a strict (read: no more fast food... but still lots of beer) diet. The weird thing is - it's working! I'm 190 now, which is something to say when you're 6'4'' and spent your life on borderline obesity. I weigh as much as I did in seventh grade! Also, I have muscles now! It's nuts - a six pack on Josh Marx! Anyhow, it's fun to poke.
For real money (living with parents though still, my rationalization stems from the economy and my wish to save and eventually return once again to the world of travel within the next year) I have been working at the Hoover Elementary school in Palo Alto as an afterschool drama specialist. I teach kids K-5th how to act! Even though I really don't... the job has mutated into a glorified babysitter, which really isn't half bad. I love the kids, and actually can stand going to work - but I must remember to forego any permanance with this job - must keep my eye on the prize!
Anyways, if I don't talk to you anymore, hit me up! I'd like to reconnect with all of you out there in internet land, and if there's anything else you'd like to know, all you have to do is ask :)
So, there it is - so long lj! Thank you for all of your emo indulgance and limited networking facilities. I shall miss you.
Nono, a real journal... one whose purpose is to actually write down my thoughts and such. Like a book. With paper.
So - I don't need this thing anymore... not that I actually post here. I think it's been about a year. I just feel that with the amount of shit that I have on here, it deserves a formal goodbye. I'll still come on from time and time again just to lurk and check up on all the people of my past, but as for a receptical of my thoughts, I'm afraid lj just isn't cutting it.
The motivation to purchase a new journal came from digging up Jeremy's old things. I was suprised when looking through his journal at how many times he mentioned my 6 year old self, and how much I remembered through his descriptions... the wonderful sensation of reliving a life with my older brother. That, and then coincidentally Lizzie, the girl whom I am currently seeing, whipped her old journal out, and read a few passages - a few that included myself from three years ago (that was when I was doing Big Love - fuck!) - I realized that there is a lot of cathartic value to this whole journal thing, and being able to sort my thoughts out in such a way might prove interesting.
For the dwindling few who still frequent lj yet I haven't managed to keep a contact, here's a nutshell of what my life has come to as of so far:
I graduated! (yay) But I really don't think that SJSU was ever the place for me, nor did it give me all of the actor-info that I wanted for a successful career. Though I've still been acting consistantly, now getting paid (albeit pennies) for my time and services, I still want that extra little step to help me get where I want to be. So, I've thrown myself back into the MFA process, this time with a renewed vigor and determination! Also, I've come to realize the reality of shallowness within my current profession, noting that looks really do help you go far. So, because of this, I have gone on a craaazzzy workout regiment, going to the gym at least 5 times a week and adhering to a strict (read: no more fast food... but still lots of beer) diet. The weird thing is - it's working! I'm 190 now, which is something to say when you're 6'4'' and spent your life on borderline obesity. I weigh as much as I did in seventh grade! Also, I have muscles now! It's nuts - a six pack on Josh Marx! Anyhow, it's fun to poke.
For real money (living with parents though still, my rationalization stems from the economy and my wish to save and eventually return once again to the world of travel within the next year) I have been working at the Hoover Elementary school in Palo Alto as an afterschool drama specialist. I teach kids K-5th how to act! Even though I really don't... the job has mutated into a glorified babysitter, which really isn't half bad. I love the kids, and actually can stand going to work - but I must remember to forego any permanance with this job - must keep my eye on the prize!
Anyways, if I don't talk to you anymore, hit me up! I'd like to reconnect with all of you out there in internet land, and if there's anything else you'd like to know, all you have to do is ask :)
So, there it is - so long lj! Thank you for all of your emo indulgance and limited networking facilities. I shall miss you.