feeling like poo is something i dont like to do, and im feeling it.
tonight...the dinner was fun, the place was nice but i was disappointed at a few things. the dance was fun and seeing some of my teachers was fun but i am a bad dancer. in the end i began to realize somethings and they brought me down so by the time i dropped carey and nate off i was feeling like shit. i just wanted to go to the beach and sit down in the sand and forget about everything, i feel like sitting down and drinking a lot, but i dont want to. i just feel like jumping in the water and letting the current take me away from the harsh reality of shittyness and jealousy. i feel like something is missing and i cant find out what. its a cold and deep feeling that turns everything into shit. im tired of this shit and it needs to stop.