For Victor

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Last night i dreamt
you ran ahead of me
not with your arms and hands
lifelessly
vividly,
you waved
and walked faster than my eyes could see
while i stayed behind with my tears.

in the mirror
were not my eyes
but some other girl's
peep holes
which were not mine,
which meant
that walking silhouette
was not you,
couldn't be you
would never ever

you said you can't
walk more than 20 mins
each time

my heart aches.