Re: sigh
Aaarrgghh! And that was more of an exasperated aarrrgghh. Today was epicly dull and frustrating to boot. Too many imbiciles calling at work and too much unorganized, lackadazical (spelled wrong?) demeanor going around. My company partners per say. We still have to work on our film shoot this weekend since I'd be out voted now if I said anything and it wouldn't matter that we are still somewhat to grossly unprepared? No doesn't matter I guess. This will be interesting to say the least. And it doesn't help the day move along when your supposed best friend does not return an important email with a call or subsequent email. A slap in the face, don't you think? Especially when it concerns said friendship? And I am still battling perception about my weight. I don't really know what the reality of it is. I can see myself, pleasantly curvacious and slim. The next moment I am in photos or side by side with a slimmer lass or trying to fit into clothes I should fit into. I know I need to lose at least 20lbs., but it is hard when your love of your life sees you as being beautiful and fine the way your are. That is a wonderful blessing that I appreciate, and at the same time, makes it harder to lose weight when you don't have the support to do so. Having to work 5 days a week and not being that active on weekends makes it difficult to keep the same level of athletic activity I once used to have. At those times I was a very pleasant 130-145lbs. I'd be happy at 140lbs. I don't want to be twiggy, I am going for the old athletic build I once had when I was a swimmer...except for the bulky sides that occurred from weight training. Eh. What can you do. I am just fed up with today so don't mind me.