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i dont update alot, as you know... but i just need to........ vent
today was bad. after a pretty upsetting thing happening last night today wasnt much better. so it started out with a REALLY bad accounting test grade... i got over it pretty quickly, then economics... not so bad.... i think i did well on my business test i took today.... read a poem about death in literature.... programming got cancelled so i sat in an empty college for 2 hours until they kicked me out and i sat in the cold waiting for my ride home.... i get home.... talk to my friend danielle. danielle is amazing if you havent heard me talk about her before... shes got a little girl who is almost a year old... both her parents are dead and her grandmother pretty much raised her.... her grandmother... another amazing women... well, a few months ago her grandma had some problems... a blood clot in one of her arteries or something so they did surgery.... it wasnt really serious apparently but they kept her in the hospital anyways and found out later that they scraped something, im not sure what anymore, anyways they went to operate again and fount out that her grandmother had more clogged arteries but she at this point was too weak to do more surgery... they said they would have to wait about 6 months for her to get her strength up again. well shes been in the hospital since then, not doing well either... lots of tubes and monitors... well today they unplugged her after the doctors said she was just going to keep getting worse and if not worse, she wasnt going to get any better. so at noon they pulled the plug, when i found out it was about 7... she could die at any time... danielle didnt sound so bad when i talked to her, but i was having a hard time not getting all weepy. i had to get off pretty quick and as soon as i did i broke down. i told someone this tonight and they seemed to think i was crazy "you cried over her grandma?" im sorry but i spent hours talking to this woman about everything, just me and her, she is a beautiful wonderful person just like danielle. danielle doesnt deserve this. and on top of it all... in 2 days... on the 10th it will mark 2 years since my mom died. it does not at all seem that long. i was thinking about that alot today actually, which could be part of why the news about danielles grandma hit me so hard.
all of this was just me ranting, im not looking for pity or anything i just needed a way to vent... feel free to ignore it if you want
today was bad. after a pretty upsetting thing happening last night today wasnt much better. so it started out with a REALLY bad accounting test grade... i got over it pretty quickly, then economics... not so bad.... i think i did well on my business test i took today.... read a poem about death in literature.... programming got cancelled so i sat in an empty college for 2 hours until they kicked me out and i sat in the cold waiting for my ride home.... i get home.... talk to my friend danielle. danielle is amazing if you havent heard me talk about her before... shes got a little girl who is almost a year old... both her parents are dead and her grandmother pretty much raised her.... her grandmother... another amazing women... well, a few months ago her grandma had some problems... a blood clot in one of her arteries or something so they did surgery.... it wasnt really serious apparently but they kept her in the hospital anyways and found out later that they scraped something, im not sure what anymore, anyways they went to operate again and fount out that her grandmother had more clogged arteries but she at this point was too weak to do more surgery... they said they would have to wait about 6 months for her to get her strength up again. well shes been in the hospital since then, not doing well either... lots of tubes and monitors... well today they unplugged her after the doctors said she was just going to keep getting worse and if not worse, she wasnt going to get any better. so at noon they pulled the plug, when i found out it was about 7... she could die at any time... danielle didnt sound so bad when i talked to her, but i was having a hard time not getting all weepy. i had to get off pretty quick and as soon as i did i broke down. i told someone this tonight and they seemed to think i was crazy "you cried over her grandma?" im sorry but i spent hours talking to this woman about everything, just me and her, she is a beautiful wonderful person just like danielle. danielle doesnt deserve this. and on top of it all... in 2 days... on the 10th it will mark 2 years since my mom died. it does not at all seem that long. i was thinking about that alot today actually, which could be part of why the news about danielles grandma hit me so hard.
all of this was just me ranting, im not looking for pity or anything i just needed a way to vent... feel free to ignore it if you want