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i've fallen off the edge. I don't know what to do.. this is all so real. but... can we pretend :(? of course not. I'm holding on by my last thread. is it alright if i quit the game of life?
my life seems so difficult. im sorry. yes. i hate drama. but..make it all go away... please? Im not a depressive person... dont take me for that.. but all i feel like doing anymore is crying, for several reasons. im weighed down. reasons being.. one huge gynormous one.. which.. it is not neccessary 2 be said im sorry. I cant trust anyone. That is the last time i tell you *anything* you fucked things up big time.. Itd be different if you had at least consulted with me.. and actually checked up on me in that three day period.. instead you went.. betrayed my trust and just continued 2 judge me. and i called you my best friend. and 2 think i actually trusted you. yea. right. what a joke.
im tired. maybe i wont wake up in the morning. perhaps from lack of blood.
... i am so fed up.. i have always been the one to put on a happy face and pretend like everything is okay. but you wanna know what? i am through. its not healthy. it is not good. no more bottled up feelings. everyone just thinks "oooh its just little stephanie, shell never be mad" does that mean i don't have feelings either? lets all break my heart alright?
dont judge me. i am mad at you.
DONT reply 2 this.
i need time.. much time 2 cool off. before i say something. .that may be regretted.