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do you ever feel as if life is passing you by? i think i have always been a bit slow in the game, but i hate it when it is obvious. i feel as if everyone is constantly one step above me, and that can be hard to deal with sometimes.
i love what i do b/c i meet so many new people, and it is great and all...but by the end of the night when i am sitting here all alone, awake just b/c i dont want to crawl into bedby myself...and then wake up to another day by myself, i get to thinking about what i want/dont want and if those are the sorts of things that i actually do want.
i want to be able to tell my residents anything i would tell my friends, b/c honestly, some of them are really cool and i do see them more often than my other friends (bc we live so close together). it is really hard to hold things back and keep it "professional". even though i know i dont...but there are certain things i try not to talk to them about. i guess it just gets hard when i hear about the things that everyone else is doing and realizing that i am not a part of that...and i cant really seem to fit in very well.
also, i am just someone who needs to talk...so when i dont have my usual peeps here, i talk to the rezzies...and that can be a good or a bad thing. its just hard to have my girls who dont know anything about what is going on here and then have the rezzies, who have no clue who i am in "real life"...like they dont know my friends, or who i am, or what i like to do when my ass isnt here.....so in short, stories are hard to relate to both sides.
i love what i do b/c i meet so many new people, and it is great and all...but by the end of the night when i am sitting here all alone, awake just b/c i dont want to crawl into bedby myself...and then wake up to another day by myself, i get to thinking about what i want/dont want and if those are the sorts of things that i actually do want.
i want to be able to tell my residents anything i would tell my friends, b/c honestly, some of them are really cool and i do see them more often than my other friends (bc we live so close together). it is really hard to hold things back and keep it "professional". even though i know i dont...but there are certain things i try not to talk to them about. i guess it just gets hard when i hear about the things that everyone else is doing and realizing that i am not a part of that...and i cant really seem to fit in very well.
also, i am just someone who needs to talk...so when i dont have my usual peeps here, i talk to the rezzies...and that can be a good or a bad thing. its just hard to have my girls who dont know anything about what is going on here and then have the rezzies, who have no clue who i am in "real life"...like they dont know my friends, or who i am, or what i like to do when my ass isnt here.....so in short, stories are hard to relate to both sides.