drama

[whathome17]

so ive been thinking about it and heres the deal and i dont know what to do with it: i can go to normal boarding school next year (granted i get in) if i repeat my junior year, or i can stay at oakley and graduate in june. so the big question is: IS NORMAL SCHOOL WITH NO BOUNDARIES AND NO URINARY ANALYSIS AND ROOMS WITH CLOSED DOORS AND INTERNET

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Best Thing I Ever Did

[anonymous]

I really fucked up my soph + jr yr at school. My mom was real sick, MS. I was her primary care giver cuz my dad was so busy with all his biz. My brother was away at college. I started taking shit to help me sleep, then needed something to wake up, then more. not sure, but knew that if I didn't do something I might not be alive to make a senior year.

I researched schools my self on line.

Heard the same thing. Gotta repeat. So, I did. Im a sr now. I have a 3.95 gpa. You wouldn't believe the differnce it made. Remember, drama isn't over after hs. it doesnt disappear. I love my buds here. I even love sports now. who would've thought? My teachers are incredible!!!!

I got 3 scholarships to colleges. I still fight the same demons. They didn't leave me.

Fast forward...
What does life look like for you in four years, ten years?

I hated fast forward...

"insanity" doing the same thing over and over expecting it to turn out different!

Find a place worth loving, a thing worth doing.

My roommate once told me something... pissed me off.. "get over yourself!" she said. Once I got pasted pissed, I realized she was right. I made everything SOOOOOOOOOO significant in my life, every damn little thing, every little look, comment... Everything was about me... I had this constant monologue going on in my head as if I was a made for TV movie or an autobiography of greatness in the making and everyone would understand my life, my thoughts. Everyone would get me.

No one ever hears a monologue.

In the end, we all die, someone throws dirt on our grave, then they all go out to Denny's for lunch. And the worms get us.

I want to live my life... I want to make a difference. Cuz in the end, it's just the worms.