I mean, I'm sure that was the point, but wow, that's so sad.
Blah, I hope you're alright. (-__-)You sound........not good. *sigh*
Myspace it being a fag right now. I can't believe I just used the word fag.
...I mean that in the......myspace is stupid way....not that myspace is homosexuial.
Blah.......I'm trying to make one of those, funny-cheer you up-make you laugh kind of a comment, but it's not quite comming out that way. *sigh* Sorry. Blah.
I think we all need new lives! Like seriously. I feel like I'm just waisting away. Today I was riding in the car, realizing that I basicaly waited this entire week, just waiting for Friday to come. I mean, I did stuff but...it was all just temparary things to do to get through the day faster, you know? And I thought - what if Friday doesn't work out? What if I've waisted this entire week, simply looking forward to something that won't even happen. I lost all that time. I just missed so much potential of what the day could be. And come to find out, ha, I was right. Friday - today, might not work out. I pray it does, but it might not.
Is that how you feel? Lile life is just passing you by - but you're not doing anything to stop it? If so, I can totally relate right now. *siiiiiigh*
I hope you feel better hun, and remember, I'm seriously only a phone call away! I miss talking! ^_^
that actually made me chuckle. ctm. i don't know, i just feel so lonely and almost as if the things i really "care" about aren't as important to me. and sometimes i just want someone to want me, you know? like, i feel so lost without my sister but i know she doesn't feel the same. i wish people needed me as much as i needed them. if she dies, i don't know what i would do. if i die, her world will keep going around. i mean, yeah, she'll be sad, but it's not the end of the world, you know? she's not dependent on me but i am on her. i watched the Notebook last night and like, the old couple reminded me so much of my grandparents because my grandma has alzheimers (however you spell it) and like, my grandpa is so loyal to her and he loves her so much even though she doesn't remember him and i just started crying so hard at the last scene because i love my grandparents so much and i don't ever want them to die and their love makes me happy/sad inside because it's that everlasting kind of love which i'm afraid is out of my reach. i just want to fall in love. i want to know that i'm not worthless, that i'm worth giving a shit about, that SOMEONE loves me for ME and doesn't care about body or attractiveness, but really finds something in me that they just love. i woke up this morning and i just felt like...my skin was too tight. like, i had gotten bigger over night and now i don't fit my own body. and i hate this feeling because it's like, well do something, go exercise, eat healthy. but then it's like, i'm really tired right now, so i'll do it later. i mean, it is 6:30 in the morning right now, so it makes sense, but like, i just wish i could make all these weird feelings go away with one run, you know? i just want something INSTANT to happen. i'm TIRED of waiting, i'm SO tired.
okay yeah. i'm done. i hate myspace. i hope it burns to the ground.
That's so sad.....
I mean, I'm sure that was the point, but wow, that's so sad.
Blah, I hope you're alright. (-__-)You sound........not good. *sigh*
Myspace it being a fag right now. I can't believe I just used the word fag.
...I mean that in the......myspace is stupid way....not that myspace is homosexuial.
Blah.......I'm trying to make one of those, funny-cheer you up-make you laugh kind of a comment, but it's not quite comming out that way. *sigh* Sorry. Blah.
I think we all need new lives! Like seriously. I feel like I'm just waisting away. Today I was riding in the car, realizing that I basicaly waited this entire week, just waiting for Friday to come. I mean, I did stuff but...it was all just temparary things to do to get through the day faster, you know? And I thought - what if Friday doesn't work out? What if I've waisted this entire week, simply looking forward to something that won't even happen. I lost all that time. I just missed so much potential of what the day could be. And come to find out, ha, I was right. Friday - today, might not work out. I pray it does, but it might not.
Is that how you feel? Lile life is just passing you by - but you're not doing anything to stop it? If so, I can totally relate right now. *siiiiiigh*
I hope you feel better hun, and remember, I'm seriously only a phone call away! I miss talking! ^_^
-Mai
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i don't know, i just feel so lonely and almost as if the things i really "care" about aren't as important to me.
and sometimes i just want someone to want me, you know? like, i feel so lost without my sister but i know she doesn't feel the same. i wish people needed me as much as i needed them. if she dies, i don't know what i would do. if i die, her world will keep going around. i mean, yeah, she'll be sad, but it's not the end of the world, you know? she's not dependent on me but i am on her.
i watched the Notebook last night and like, the old couple reminded me so much of my grandparents because my grandma has alzheimers (however you spell it) and like, my grandpa is so loyal to her and he loves her so much even though she doesn't remember him and i just started crying so hard at the last scene because i love my grandparents so much and i don't ever want them to die and their love makes me happy/sad inside because it's that everlasting kind of love which i'm afraid is out of my reach.
i just want to fall in love. i want to know that i'm not worthless, that i'm worth giving a shit about, that SOMEONE loves me for ME and doesn't care about body or attractiveness, but really finds something in me that they just love.
i woke up this morning and i just felt like...my skin was too tight. like, i had gotten bigger over night and now i don't fit my own body. and i hate this feeling because it's like, well do something, go exercise, eat healthy. but then it's like, i'm really tired right now, so i'll do it later. i mean, it is 6:30 in the morning right now, so it makes sense, but like, i just wish i could make all these weird feelings go away with one run, you know? i just want something INSTANT to happen. i'm TIRED of waiting, i'm SO tired.
okay yeah. i'm done. i hate myspace. i hope it burns to the ground.
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