Ultimately useless affirmation of my human mind's conciousness - and a bit of fun, too
We're supposed to ask some online "oracle" to give us some word that will guide us toward complacency or contentment by posing a question dealng with some aspect of our life we're unsure about. I'm tempted to ask it what better things I could be doing with my time.
There was a time during which the thought of leaving home wasn't welcomed in my mind... but now, I just don't care. Going to college will be the next stage of my life, hopefully guiding me toward independency and a greater sense of personal confidence... yadda, yadda... I just don't see myself getting emotional about it or something. I don't mean to say I'm not looking forward to a change in my life, because I wouldn't mind it at all. I'm optimistic about all that bullshit.
Santa Cruz has a great campus, but I can't say that I love the people I've seen representing it so far. It's kind of liberal for my taste, but I can get over that. The tour guides have all been annoyingly chipper and bubbly, but you'd have to be a kissass to sign up as a tour guide, anyway, so I can't really judge it based on that. UCSC seems like the place I'll be going, because when I was there, I could see myself being there comfortably. It wasn't intimidating or awe-insipiring, which was nice. It was realistic, is what I mean to say. Their newspaper wasn't anything to go crazy over, but it looked like a lot of fun to write for. The town has a great climate, a view of the ocean, a nice place to get sandwiches, and it isn't that far from home. I like it.
I'm having trouble lately in that the shit Linker is having us read (namely Macbeth) is making me question the overall value of life. Death is a scary thing to think about obviously, but I'm fishtailing between thinking that since life is short, you should enjoy it to the fullest and thinking that since life is short, any futile attempt at making that fact go away is just ignorance. I'd like to think it's as easy as believing it's the first one but unfortunately my mind doesn't work that way. I'd also like to think that there's something beyond life but... again, I'm a little too reasonable for that. I envy religious people, rather than condemn them for thinking that there's more to life than life. That would make the whole "living life to the fullest" thing a little easier for me, I think. I was raised Christian, and it didn't stick, so that is probably that.
There's really nothing else I want to say, except that I'm really excited about the Gomez concert I'm going to Wednesday night and the Coma Lilies concert I'm going to next Saturday night.
P.S.sssssssst: Don't tell anyone, but I'm going to make a MySpace, too.
There was a time during which the thought of leaving home wasn't welcomed in my mind... but now, I just don't care. Going to college will be the next stage of my life, hopefully guiding me toward independency and a greater sense of personal confidence... yadda, yadda... I just don't see myself getting emotional about it or something. I don't mean to say I'm not looking forward to a change in my life, because I wouldn't mind it at all. I'm optimistic about all that bullshit.
Santa Cruz has a great campus, but I can't say that I love the people I've seen representing it so far. It's kind of liberal for my taste, but I can get over that. The tour guides have all been annoyingly chipper and bubbly, but you'd have to be a kissass to sign up as a tour guide, anyway, so I can't really judge it based on that. UCSC seems like the place I'll be going, because when I was there, I could see myself being there comfortably. It wasn't intimidating or awe-insipiring, which was nice. It was realistic, is what I mean to say. Their newspaper wasn't anything to go crazy over, but it looked like a lot of fun to write for. The town has a great climate, a view of the ocean, a nice place to get sandwiches, and it isn't that far from home. I like it.
I'm having trouble lately in that the shit Linker is having us read (namely Macbeth) is making me question the overall value of life. Death is a scary thing to think about obviously, but I'm fishtailing between thinking that since life is short, you should enjoy it to the fullest and thinking that since life is short, any futile attempt at making that fact go away is just ignorance. I'd like to think it's as easy as believing it's the first one but unfortunately my mind doesn't work that way. I'd also like to think that there's something beyond life but... again, I'm a little too reasonable for that. I envy religious people, rather than condemn them for thinking that there's more to life than life. That would make the whole "living life to the fullest" thing a little easier for me, I think. I was raised Christian, and it didn't stick, so that is probably that.
There's really nothing else I want to say, except that I'm really excited about the Gomez concert I'm going to Wednesday night and the Coma Lilies concert I'm going to next Saturday night.
P.S.sssssssst: Don't tell anyone, but I'm going to make a MySpace, too.