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so things are changing every single goddamn day. there's no more fall back anymore. not that i ever viewed him as that it was just like well...we could always still hook up. but people leavvve. and thats probably better anyway because i need to just. feel. but so does he. he being another person. and just feel something for a damn change instead of needing plans and sure things and clear cuts and straight lines and lists and knowing. its funny...the first time i ever noticed him was because he didn't care about any of those things. i don't know how it got that way. i guess its the fear of the future. i guess i'm pretty sure of that. god. i don't know.
we won today which feels amazinggg. even though i unsecretly detest the mid position and i hate saying that because. JUSTBECAUSE
but i really dooo need to get on that homework situachionnn.
upcoming suckation:
october 1st, 6th and oh yes most likely tomorrow.
butheyiloveyou.
sometimes i think about how nice it'd be if there was someone that'd carry my history book. hahaha its so lame but i DO. because its so heavy. and.
andheyimissyouhaveitoldyouthat.
ireallydontthinkihave.
andiknowyouswearitllbethesame.
butmaybemaybeitdoesnthavetobethatway.
ivegrownupandiknowyouvechanged.
woooohoo for being desperatly obvious/obviously desperate.
we won today which feels amazinggg. even though i unsecretly detest the mid position and i hate saying that because. JUSTBECAUSE
but i really dooo need to get on that homework situachionnn.
upcoming suckation:
october 1st, 6th and oh yes most likely tomorrow.
butheyiloveyou.
sometimes i think about how nice it'd be if there was someone that'd carry my history book. hahaha its so lame but i DO. because its so heavy. and.
andheyimissyouhaveitoldyouthat.
ireallydontthinkihave.
andiknowyouswearitllbethesame.
butmaybemaybeitdoesnthavetobethatway.
ivegrownupandiknowyouvechanged.
woooohoo for being desperatly obvious/obviously desperate.