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matt and i broke up again last night. this time it was me that brought up the whole conversation, which i almost immediately regretted doing. i told him i felt like he wasn't treating me as well as he should and i guess i hoped that he would apologize and start making changes for the better in our relationship but instead he decided to just say all the same shit he said all those other times about how he's trying to live his life and make his music and draw his art and he just can't be in a relationship at the same time as all that. of course, all of this is bullshit because we all know that matt nelson can't NOT be in a relationship. if it's not me, it's gonna be somebody. and then he'll get real sad after a while and then he'll call me up and we'll hang out and i'll still be in love with him and he'll need me to hold him while he feels sorry for himself and then we'll do it and voila the cycle continues.
i am still in love with him but jesus fucking christ he's such a selfish baby.
now i get to play the waiting game for the next few days to find out who he's chosen to be his next best friend for a month that he fucks sometimes but mostly just uses for company while he runs errands.
i am still in love with him but jesus fucking christ he's such a selfish baby.
now i get to play the waiting game for the next few days to find out who he's chosen to be his next best friend for a month that he fucks sometimes but mostly just uses for company while he runs errands.