personal growth and the next week
PERSONAL GROWTH: Why does it have to involve embarassment and pain?
At work today I made a mean remark about a secretary, a secretary who wreaked havok in the department about five years ago by making a sexual harassment complaint against a co-worker (a co-worker I very much liked, and who died last year). Another co-worker, one I much admire and like, laid into me for holding this old grudge, saying I might not know the whole story, that I shouldn't judge people, that I shouldn't hold a grudge. And that I probably enjoyed holding the grudge.
Of course, most of what she said was true, and after I protested I did pull myself together and the I apologized.
But I feel young and gauche and embarassed and disgusted with myself.
I feel just awful.
NEXT WEEK: I leave Sunday for New Orleans, where I'm volunteering for a week with Habitat for Humanity. I've wanted to do this since Katrina, but my kids were little and I didn't think I could leave for a week without a divorce being involved.
I don't travel much, and I barely know how to hold a hammer -- but I'm excited, and I hope I'll learn a lot.
Then, on Saturday, I leave New Orleans and go to DC for the Stewart rally.
And chums -- Thanks for letting me vent this. I feel a little better just writing it down....
At work today I made a mean remark about a secretary, a secretary who wreaked havok in the department about five years ago by making a sexual harassment complaint against a co-worker (a co-worker I very much liked, and who died last year). Another co-worker, one I much admire and like, laid into me for holding this old grudge, saying I might not know the whole story, that I shouldn't judge people, that I shouldn't hold a grudge. And that I probably enjoyed holding the grudge.
Of course, most of what she said was true, and after I protested I did pull myself together and the I apologized.
But I feel young and gauche and embarassed and disgusted with myself.
I feel just awful.
NEXT WEEK: I leave Sunday for New Orleans, where I'm volunteering for a week with Habitat for Humanity. I've wanted to do this since Katrina, but my kids were little and I didn't think I could leave for a week without a divorce being involved.
I don't travel much, and I barely know how to hold a hammer -- but I'm excited, and I hope I'll learn a lot.
Then, on Saturday, I leave New Orleans and go to DC for the Stewart rally.
And chums -- Thanks for letting me vent this. I feel a little better just writing it down....