What makes me mad.
Is the feeling that people are talking behind your back. And the worst part is you know they are. Especially with people you work with. Its frustrating cause you think you can trust your co-workers but in all actuality. You cant trust them, you can't trust anyone. What also makes me mad is that they can't come to me about things i'm doing wrong with my job because they think it might hurt my feelings. Duh, it might hurt my feelings but I will understand. This is my job. It would be most helpful for me if they came to me personally instead of talking through my supervisor in which takes it to her big meeting and talks to everyone else about me and then comes back to me not even knowing my side or my oppinion and then basically demotes my job because there was a miss communication. The problem is... ever since i've let them know i'm depressed i feel that i've been treeted differently. But in all actuallity i'm the same person i was before, and and and I let my boss know that I am the same person as before and I don't want to be treeted differently And This is my job 100% untill the end of the year. HONESTLY, But whatever... And after my boss tells me stuff about how people are concerned about me and they don't think i should work part of my job I told her that it hurt my feelings. I have a meeting with her tomorrow. I honestly don't want to go because i dont' feel she or anyone but a few are trust worthy on my staff. I'm so glad there are only two weeks of school left because this is really stupid. And Before i was sad about not comming back next year as a CA but i'm glad i'm not comming back because their system is really rediculouse. Damn it, fuckin take it to the source before you take it else where. TELL ME THE TRUTH, TELL ME WHAT NEEDS TO BE DONE, COMMUNICATE WITH ME WHY YOU DON'T THINK I WAS DOING MY JOB OR TALK TO ME ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED BEFORE YOU TALK TO SOMEONE ELSE. Because i kind of feel like it is gossip other wise. RIGHT now i feel like shit because no one talked to me about me before this whole situation. I will miss some people from eastern though. I really do like it here.
Also because of this well because i'm depressed anyways i can't sleep. But i think a lot, and well this makes me think a lot about what i should talk about with my supervisor tomorrow and that doesn't really stress me out, it just well doesn't let me sleep well... GRRR!!!
That's why i'm mad.
Also because of this well because i'm depressed anyways i can't sleep. But i think a lot, and well this makes me think a lot about what i should talk about with my supervisor tomorrow and that doesn't really stress me out, it just well doesn't let me sleep well... GRRR!!!
That's why i'm mad.