Thanx to Jenn....

[whatalicefound]

I think lately I have been having like the worst luck ever, I've decided that all these past weeks that have been shit to say the least...have shown me that I think I need to be more like Jennifer. Jenn doesn't care about bein fucked over or care about anything for the most part...now granted she talks often to *Tiffany*, but I think that maybe if I talked to *Tiffany* like she did then maybe I wouldn't care so much about how things are goin lately...I just have nothing left lately, I feel like I'm runnin out of whatever kept me goin all this far...maybe this is a outlet that I need, I don't know, maybe...nothing else has made me feel better or make any of the hurt go away so maybe I should consider it now...And I don't care whatever happens, like someone once told me, "If you don't care enough about yourself, then why should anyone else care about you?" and that person is right I think...its true but now I'm just at the point where I just don't care...all day ppl at work were askin me whats wrong and that I looked really sad, I didn't think I looked sad but I dunno...I'm so tired of havin one bad day after another, I'm tired of seeing what else I can take when its thrown at me...I think Jennifer is the best role model for this part of my life, she doesn't care about shit and I think I need to think that way too.

Jennifer:"Nice ppl always finsih last and I think its just better to be one of the mean ppl, cuz you never hear about a mean person getting screwed over cuz they are always the ppl who screw over the nice ppl...and they just don't care!"