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I don't know what is exactly going on in my head so i'm just going to type.
If the grammar and punctuation is wrong oh well this is just a s.o.c.
I don't know what is going on I feel like crying and i hate that everytime i write in here that its hella emotional. oh well that is what this is for right? I don't know. I guess everything I said about josh was wrong I guess that everything in general was wrong. I wonder what corey is doing. how shallow am i from going from talking about josh to corey. oh well fuck it corey was hella cool. He was intelligent and nice and cute and he knew what the hell he was talking about he was considerate too. He said i don't get enough hugs I think I believe him because everytime he hugged me i felt like crying and i didn't really want to let go. how creepy am i?? very yep i'm a creepy bitch. my eyes are tearing up. holy shit i'm lame. why can't i just be like everyone else. then it would be easy then i would would just be invisable and no one would notice me oh wait i am invisable. I'll tell you this being invisable has its ups but more than often the downs are what is happening and they go way way way down. i'm slightly disapointed in postsecret this week. I was hoping that it would have a card up that i really could relate to one that i could save and make my own. man that site is really my salvation. I truely think that without it i'd go insane. I guess it just makes me feel okay knowing that i'm not the only one going through the things that i am going through. i really am about to cry and i'm honestly not sure why. probably because no one will read this and that no one actually cares. I was shocked when ashley said that she has problems then preceeded to go on and say that its annoying that everyone thinks she is perfect. God I wish that one person thought i was perfect i'm not even kidding i wish that just one one single fucking person thought that i was perfect the way that i am with all my horrible faults that i apparently have. how can it be a bad thing when every one looks up to you. I know you say that you wish everyone would leave you alone but that is only because you've never had that happen to you. I have it happen everyday every second of my life. no one to talk to no one to look at no one to keep you feeling like a real person. wow so i'm full on crying right now what the hell is wrong with me this isn't going to help this isn't going to do anything other than make i lost my spot cause ashley interupted me because she doesn't like laurissa one of the many girls that is trying to get up her ass. I don't like her either she can go away and just stay away for ever it would be grand i need to reply to ashley. I'm kind of sad that i waste my nights trying to look attractive and don't even accomplish that i mean i'm all dolled up and have no where to go and my pictures didn't ever turn out cute. hold on i need to see this. Ashley is an angry girl with a distaste for fourteen year olds. i'm a lonely bitch who misses her best friend. I don't want to be here i need some sort of distraction from this from myself. I swear to god i'm starting to go crazy.
If the grammar and punctuation is wrong oh well this is just a s.o.c.
I don't know what is going on I feel like crying and i hate that everytime i write in here that its hella emotional. oh well that is what this is for right? I don't know. I guess everything I said about josh was wrong I guess that everything in general was wrong. I wonder what corey is doing. how shallow am i from going from talking about josh to corey. oh well fuck it corey was hella cool. He was intelligent and nice and cute and he knew what the hell he was talking about he was considerate too. He said i don't get enough hugs I think I believe him because everytime he hugged me i felt like crying and i didn't really want to let go. how creepy am i?? very yep i'm a creepy bitch. my eyes are tearing up. holy shit i'm lame. why can't i just be like everyone else. then it would be easy then i would would just be invisable and no one would notice me oh wait i am invisable. I'll tell you this being invisable has its ups but more than often the downs are what is happening and they go way way way down. i'm slightly disapointed in postsecret this week. I was hoping that it would have a card up that i really could relate to one that i could save and make my own. man that site is really my salvation. I truely think that without it i'd go insane. I guess it just makes me feel okay knowing that i'm not the only one going through the things that i am going through. i really am about to cry and i'm honestly not sure why. probably because no one will read this and that no one actually cares. I was shocked when ashley said that she has problems then preceeded to go on and say that its annoying that everyone thinks she is perfect. God I wish that one person thought i was perfect i'm not even kidding i wish that just one one single fucking person thought that i was perfect the way that i am with all my horrible faults that i apparently have. how can it be a bad thing when every one looks up to you. I know you say that you wish everyone would leave you alone but that is only because you've never had that happen to you. I have it happen everyday every second of my life. no one to talk to no one to look at no one to keep you feeling like a real person. wow so i'm full on crying right now what the hell is wrong with me this isn't going to help this isn't going to do anything other than make i lost my spot cause ashley interupted me because she doesn't like laurissa one of the many girls that is trying to get up her ass. I don't like her either she can go away and just stay away for ever it would be grand i need to reply to ashley. I'm kind of sad that i waste my nights trying to look attractive and don't even accomplish that i mean i'm all dolled up and have no where to go and my pictures didn't ever turn out cute. hold on i need to see this. Ashley is an angry girl with a distaste for fourteen year olds. i'm a lonely bitch who misses her best friend. I don't want to be here i need some sort of distraction from this from myself. I swear to god i'm starting to go crazy.