Dec 17, 2003 23:34
I'm totally bummed right now. I'm having problems with my mother, bill, school, college, scholarships, jacob, money and ESPECIALLY my dad. I feel like such a selfish asshole sometimes, and I just want to cry because I feel like everything is falling down around me. THANK GOD I HAVE MY FRIENDS! Seriously, thank god there isn't any drama in that department right now. I wouldn't be able to handle that. At least I can rely on them. God, I love my friends. We're all finally getting along too, it's great, I love it.
Man, I'm so tired of my teachers pulling me asside and asking me what's wrong, over and over. I heard the same speech three times today. I'm going to vomit all over the place if I hear the "life is full of choices" speech again today. Ugh, and Jacob is so damn sensitive, it's making things really hard. I feel like I can't say anything without making him cry. He's what makes me feel like a selfish asshole.
So, just say, how to make it right, and I swear I'll do my best to comply.