i've seen more guts in eleven year old kids.

[whataboutmystar]

don't apologize, i hope you choke and die =)

it's getting old.
real, real old.

i fall in love, and then convince myself out of love. and then look at myself, and my gross body...and realize that i'm not ready to love again.

i'm not ready to love because i don't even love myself anymore.

in the past, i would only have to look in the mirror and say "dayummm, you're a cutie"

now, i look in the mirror and say "jesus god, what happened to you..."

it's sick, because i feel like if i didn't look like this, i could convince you that you love me as much as i love you. sick. me. out.

brand new sounds like shit...but i love them, i don't care.
i've had their purevolume page on favorites for a week now, and i just sit at my computer doing shit and listening to their music, which only feeds my anger and frustration.

i don't want to be fat anymore.
i don't want to have acne anymore.
i don't want my nappy hair.
i don't want my gross body hair.

i want my v back.
i want my clear skin.
i want...hair that isn't redic.
i want my pre-pubescent hairless body.

well.
let's all bitch and throw a pity party some more.
but not do ANYthing about it =)

and you, by the way, who will never read this.
you're a fucking bitch.
i would love to slap the fuck out of you =)