I think I dreamed you into life..
This summer has been so many things..it's been incredible, and exhausting...amazing, yet...it taught me so many things.
I’m a first believer in the power of change. But there is one thing I’ve learned, and that’s the hardest part of moving forward is not looking back...
I made a lot of rash decisions this summer, and did things that I know were against my true character..and although I don't regret any of it... a part of me wonders what exactly was the point. I feel like I made so many of these decisions to just forget about everything and getting over my past. But it made me realize....that I need to do what I set out to do at the very start of summer. I broke up with Matt in order to focus on myself and my future. Instead I ended up searching for something in other people that I was lacking...but I need to figure out myself first.
The nearest way to glory is to strive to be what you wish to be thought to be
The main reason that I ended things with Matt was to focus on myself, and to figure out my future..and to start to learn how to not depend on someone else to be happy. I didn't realize until I came home what exactly that meant. When I was an Orientation Leader there was so many times I did just that, I knew working with students is what I want to do for the rest of my life, and constantly working with the LL's was one of the most rewarding things I've ever done. However, when I came home..I learned how relaxing it was to just be by myself and focus only on me. I've been laying out on the beach, reading, and the past few days I've been focused on working on my resume and applying to graduate school..and I've never been more content. Sure I'd love to find someone who makes me incredibly happy.. but right now I'm not about to put my life on hold to be on the search for someone when I'm really happy with who and where I am. I love just hanging out with my girlfriends and just having time to focus on myself, on relaxing and having fun. I'm so glad to have dated everyone I have in the past because each relationship has made me into who I am today.. but I have a long way to go until I completely love who I am. I'm working on it, and I want to be able to love myself completely without needing a guy to do that.
Each of us may think we know exactly what we need to make us happy, what will be good for us, what will ensure we have our happy ending, but that life rarely works out in the way we expect, and that our happy ending may have all sorts of unexpected twists and turns, be shaped in all sorts of unexpected ways
I’m a first believer in the power of change. But there is one thing I’ve learned, and that’s the hardest part of moving forward is not looking back...
I made a lot of rash decisions this summer, and did things that I know were against my true character..and although I don't regret any of it... a part of me wonders what exactly was the point. I feel like I made so many of these decisions to just forget about everything and getting over my past. But it made me realize....that I need to do what I set out to do at the very start of summer. I broke up with Matt in order to focus on myself and my future. Instead I ended up searching for something in other people that I was lacking...but I need to figure out myself first.
The nearest way to glory is to strive to be what you wish to be thought to be
The main reason that I ended things with Matt was to focus on myself, and to figure out my future..and to start to learn how to not depend on someone else to be happy. I didn't realize until I came home what exactly that meant. When I was an Orientation Leader there was so many times I did just that, I knew working with students is what I want to do for the rest of my life, and constantly working with the LL's was one of the most rewarding things I've ever done. However, when I came home..I learned how relaxing it was to just be by myself and focus only on me. I've been laying out on the beach, reading, and the past few days I've been focused on working on my resume and applying to graduate school..and I've never been more content. Sure I'd love to find someone who makes me incredibly happy.. but right now I'm not about to put my life on hold to be on the search for someone when I'm really happy with who and where I am. I love just hanging out with my girlfriends and just having time to focus on myself, on relaxing and having fun. I'm so glad to have dated everyone I have in the past because each relationship has made me into who I am today.. but I have a long way to go until I completely love who I am. I'm working on it, and I want to be able to love myself completely without needing a guy to do that.
Each of us may think we know exactly what we need to make us happy, what will be good for us, what will ensure we have our happy ending, but that life rarely works out in the way we expect, and that our happy ending may have all sorts of unexpected twists and turns, be shaped in all sorts of unexpected ways