Who am I looking for?

[what_the_fij]

I was walking up the stairs today coming back from the lib and I just had this yearning to call somebody, anybody who would brighten my day. And then I thought about how often I do that, turn to people to fill something inside me that I alone can't seem to fill. I wonder why this is? I wonder if this is because I always think I need other people to

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[tuesday_sky]

Wow Maria, thank you for putting my thoughts so eloquentley. I am supposed to be going to this speech, but of course I got lured in by LJ. I do agree that God put people on this earth to interact with, but I think (and this is just my thoughts) also to make us better people. How many times do you look at someone and say "Shit I wish I was just a little bit like them, or I wish I could see the world through their eyes." People I feel are here to teach us about ourselves. I think everyone has insecurities, even the most secure people have insecurites. They probabley fear, at some time, that they will lose that confidence. The whole journey in life is filling that hole that is inside of us. And everyone fills that hole sometimes superficially or spiritually. For example we are saying that we fill that hole with friends, people, and excitement. When that is all stripped of us, what is going to fill that (thats superficial, as terrible as it may sound). And then there is those who fill that hole spiritually, with God, Buddha, Zen... whatever. The thing with that though, is that faith can never be really stripped away from you. You can always keep faith in that higher power. Your hole is not as vulnerable. I think it takes time, practice, and pain to fill that hole. Personally what I am doing right now (starting yesterday) is ten minutes after I wake up, I find a verse in the bible and sit in my bed and think about it. I apply it to everything. I am slowly letting myself be open to what God has to say to me. Yes it is only ten minutes, but it is amazing just after one day, how much more at rest I am. I put myself in a scenario, God and I are on the beach sitting next to each other, watching the water and just talking. I am not even praying, I am just asking to show me whats up, where he wants me to go. What am I supposed to do with my life. I have not heard the answer yet or maybe even a hint, but I will be patient and wait.

[what_the_fij]

You are an angel with a nice and flamboyant ass...thank you for all your wise words and musings you have no idea how much you help me