Ohhh the T.O
Jeez,
I'm at work. I'm bored. I'm supposed to be promoting this gingerbread contest-GAYNESS. But I can't bring myself to do it. It's like i'm too proud, or something. I asked some people already and it sort of backfired. This one girl was blatently rude and blurted out, "ahhh, no thankyou". I guess you can't be rude when you say no thankyou? Perhpas it was her tone that suggested otherwise. I'm sort of having a bad day. I don't want a thing to do with Jayson, I'm at the school from 9-9pm, and I keep fucking up at work. First with the fruit labels, and then the yelling at for something that wasn't my fault. Something I was told to do. Not even worth getting into, really.
I've had my nose in this Zelda game that just came out for the Nintendo DS. I'm the type of person that likes to play a game, and beat it as fast I can. So naturally I took this approach with Zelda. It's Jaysons game thing, and he's been generous enough to let me use it and take it to school and whatnot. But now it seems that I'm playing too much?? We layed down for bed, I haden't seen him all day, and in a childish/cute way I asked if he'd give me affection. He refused. Stating I should've been the one showing affection when he got home. That if I stopped playing that game maybe there would've been time. I told him I wasn't asking for much and that I just missed him. I wasn't avoiding him playing that game, I was just having fun. He threw it back in my face saying he was just tired, and wanted to sleep. I guess 5 deuces of LakePort'll do it. Jerk off. We had an agreement that he wouldn't drink on the weekdays. We fight when we drink. It doesn't seem he's willing to part with his precious rotton oats and rye. Whatever.
I'm coming home soon anyhow. Time apart is much needed. Moving in together is taking it's toll. We both weren't ready, but the situation was dire and if I wanted to stay in school and with him, it was our only option. I owe him money because my loan hasn't come in. So thats another constant lingering over us. I hate it. I just want my friends from home. I want my surroundings, my family.. I need to start hanging out with people from here more. I sort of isolate myself on the weekends, just because it's easier. And it's cold out now, so that promotes laziness throughout.
Alright, I guess I should wrap this up.
take care to all who read this.
kick it,
Rene
I'm at work. I'm bored. I'm supposed to be promoting this gingerbread contest-GAYNESS. But I can't bring myself to do it. It's like i'm too proud, or something. I asked some people already and it sort of backfired. This one girl was blatently rude and blurted out, "ahhh, no thankyou". I guess you can't be rude when you say no thankyou? Perhpas it was her tone that suggested otherwise. I'm sort of having a bad day. I don't want a thing to do with Jayson, I'm at the school from 9-9pm, and I keep fucking up at work. First with the fruit labels, and then the yelling at for something that wasn't my fault. Something I was told to do. Not even worth getting into, really.
I've had my nose in this Zelda game that just came out for the Nintendo DS. I'm the type of person that likes to play a game, and beat it as fast I can. So naturally I took this approach with Zelda. It's Jaysons game thing, and he's been generous enough to let me use it and take it to school and whatnot. But now it seems that I'm playing too much?? We layed down for bed, I haden't seen him all day, and in a childish/cute way I asked if he'd give me affection. He refused. Stating I should've been the one showing affection when he got home. That if I stopped playing that game maybe there would've been time. I told him I wasn't asking for much and that I just missed him. I wasn't avoiding him playing that game, I was just having fun. He threw it back in my face saying he was just tired, and wanted to sleep. I guess 5 deuces of LakePort'll do it. Jerk off. We had an agreement that he wouldn't drink on the weekdays. We fight when we drink. It doesn't seem he's willing to part with his precious rotton oats and rye. Whatever.
I'm coming home soon anyhow. Time apart is much needed. Moving in together is taking it's toll. We both weren't ready, but the situation was dire and if I wanted to stay in school and with him, it was our only option. I owe him money because my loan hasn't come in. So thats another constant lingering over us. I hate it. I just want my friends from home. I want my surroundings, my family.. I need to start hanging out with people from here more. I sort of isolate myself on the weekends, just because it's easier. And it's cold out now, so that promotes laziness throughout.
Alright, I guess I should wrap this up.
take care to all who read this.
kick it,
Rene