FUCK YOU, FUCK YOU, FUCK YOU, YOUR COOL, FUCK YOU TOO IM OUT!
Sorry for the weird Stop...I had to update it like that b/c my sister needed the computer..so i just left it like that until now! WEll yea rich at jimmies house 2 nites ago..was amazing..he put his arm around me and we h/u and w/e and we just sat there and talked and had loads of fun...NOW last nite at jimmie's was Different..He was an asshole and didn't even like look at me or touch me or anything...he has those days i guess..I just get so frustrated..B/c when i gave him his shirts he was like ill give you a kiss later..did that ever happen? NOO no it didn't!! Grr w/e IM DONE WITH THIS!! I AM NOT DOING THIS TO MYSELF ANYMORE...I am not making myself upset i can't do that to myself...I am stopping this H/u random game..I can't i realized i do want a bf...I can't deal with pple and their games anymore..like i don't kno why rich was liek that..did he like someone that was there...that wasn't me...i mean i had a lil connection with him but that stopped right away..and me n aly went into the bathroom and then he left...Like an asshole..and ughh last nite was just FUCKED UP..i had fun otherwise with rachel, aly, carly and marilyn...Random i kno...But it was MAD fun..I love them alL! good times had by all..i guess..but as i drove home all i thought about was that whole rich thing..and i can't do this to myself i just make myself upset all the time by doing this...I can't NO MORE GAMES...NO MORE...we h/u or we don't none of this guessing game shit that i had to do last nite..IM THRU WITH IT.. u think maybe b/c chris was there? Noo...that s not it b/c in october when we started to really h/u chris was there..I dunno..w/e i feel like if i don't IM him then we never talk..so u kno what im sick of this shit i really am IM DONE.. BOYS CAN GO AND SUCK THEIR OWN DICKS!! seriously UGhGh..I REALLY think guys like to torture me..and play with my feelings..ugh fuckers! I hate boys..I mean i love them as much as i hate them..im gonna go now and watch FRIENDS b/c that will make me happy..FUCK THIS IM OUT!