Summa time and the livin's easy!?
ok wow im really Confused right now. I could have sworn i updated my journal the other day. Like on thursday. I can't believe it didn't update. Im really pissed. well anyway lets talk about what happened this past week. I last wrote in here on july 9, which was last friday...wow Ok a lot has happened to me since then believe it or not. Well im over the whole danny leaving and not saying goodbye to me thing. I mean it still hurts but im not sitting here and crying over it anymore. there is no point, crying will just make it worse for me so i decided to get over it and move on and put a smile on my face. Which has actually been working for the past 8 days. ok last sat July 10th, i babysat my boys until like 9 and i was supposed to hang out w/jess after but she went to a movie with erika and kids instead which kind of pissed me off a little bit but w/e No big deal. so i made plans w/eric and kids, and sarah. So when i was done babysitting i met up with eric chris rob and jimmie. Jimmie left us after a little while..NOT SHOCKING and then at like 10:30 we met up with sarah. First we chilled at in and out and then we bounced from there after seeing melba and the girls. then we were gonna go to duane reade to figure something out but i was following eric and he brought us to the bowling alley. sarah and i went to the bathroom and w/e and we went outside and we were all talkin and everything..so nice. and eric made a really stupid comment and i got pissed off and i was like oK im leaving now bye. I had to be home in like 10 minutes anyway and i was gonna drop sarah off so yea. Then sarah almost went with the boys without me and OBVIOUSLY that pissed me off even more and she saw that i was really pissed off so she stayed with me and i dropped her off at home. I don't need any kind of repeats of 11th grade thank you very much. Ok so on sunday i just did nothing at all im guessing and i made sure i still had plans with jess for the night. and that night we met up with eric chris and jimmie but jimmie of course left or w/e then we see melanie alyssa rach stoof and peter! so melba was like can u guys come to long beach with us. and we did. and we were there and everyhting and shit was cool and eric was pissing me off so i yelled at hime saying he was an asshole and shady and shit which is true by the way. and then i guess i don't know what happened to me but i started bugging out at Jess for nO reason what so ever and i was saying all this shit i didn't even mean but came spitting out of my mouth and then we were walking back to the car and i was on the phone w/sarah and i wasn't walking w/the group b/c i was telling sarah how pissed off about shit and i was still like fucked up from the danny thing and i didn't want eric to hear b/c he would make some stupid comment and i didn't feel like yelling at him so jess thought i didn't want her to come in the car w/me so she went w/eric and chris and i walked back to my car myself shit scared in the dark in long beach. so then i sped out of that bad boy and was just gonna go home b/c i was pissed off but i decided to meet them all at 711 b/c it was free slurpies but i didn't talk to jess b/c i didnt know what to say so i left it alone for that night so i can clear my head. OK well this is thing. i wanted to h/u with eric's freind rich for some reason, and I told rob so on monday he was like im goin out w/rich and i was like ok and he was like call me when ur ready b/c he knew i was goin out with sarah that night. so i did and we met up with them and we first went to the pool hall and i didn't play b/c i don't play pool and b/c YOU CAN'T MAKE ME DO ANYTHING I DONT WANT TO DO!!! haha well then after playing pool we went to the sherwood and then we went to the lawrence docks. and then we met up chris and eric and then came back to my house and i was like i dunno if he wants to h/u so i was just like w/e and we were throwing shit at eachother (me n rich) and then i was talking to rob and sarah and asking them what i should do and they were like just got sit next to him so i did and sarah turned off the lights and w.e and i was like yea ok and then i stole his hat and he tried to get it back and i was like umm no! and then he got it at one point and i jumped on him and got it back and we were walking out of the room togehter talking and rob closed the lights on us and the door and iwas like this is akward hes like yea i kno, then hes like can i have my hat back? i was like umm u have to earn it and then we kissed and i put it on his head and said he earned it. and eric had no idea what was goin on at that moment. I dont think he ever found out. anyway the next day i texted him and was like do u wanna chill? and i meant with like everyone in the group and he says to me he doesn't want to lead me on the h/u was cool but he only likes me as a friend. and then i started wanting danny b/c i was like wow hes the only one that fuckin likes me, like its annoying and i cried in the car home w/lauren and she made me laugh and i love her for it. and me and jess made up that day (tuesday) b/c i told her i needed to talk to her and i also chilled w/eddie for a lil bit too. and jess said that rich should be so lucky and i wasn't like upset that he said that i was just like where did he get the idea that i wanted anything!? like i dont want a bf nothing serious b/c im leaving in 43 DAYS!! AH and shit so fuck him. and tuesday morgan came over that night and they stayed until like 1:30 and morgan was falling asleep like always lol. then wed nite me n jleigh! went to go see spideyman 2 it was a good movie, a little slow in the beginning but it was an overall good good movie. big cliff hanger though so yea we will see about that. and thursday i went out with my mom college shopping i got my blanket and sheets and some other shit. I have to get a lot more crap but at least we made a little dent and me and my mom went out to dinner at mara nara, and saw kenten! haha and then i got home at like 10 and then we watched General Hospital and then i went to bed. Last nite a cinderella story came out (hilary duff, chad michael murry!) and i saw it with melissa OF COURSE b/c of hilary lol its our thing. the movie was stupid but good at the same time...mostly b/c she was in it. and ok i have to make in known i think Chad michal murry is HOT as well see im not a total lesbo lol and then after the movie i came home and chilled w/my dad for a little bit and then i went to sleep at like 11:30 haha YES IM A LOSER. and I spoke to mommy today! shes visiting Lauren this weekend in DC so yea me n daddy have been bonding :-P I think im goin out to dinner with him tonite or w/e and today i think im gonna lay around outside and tan b/c i need to get darker im not as tan as i would like to be for the summer and i wanna be dark when i get to college, haha don't ask me why but yea. Well thats what has been goin on the past 8 days, a little play by play. ONE more thing... HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAUREN SHAMOIL I LOVE YOU!! the big 19! MWAAAAAAAAAA <3