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i waste time. school is soon. so much to fret over.
i just waste time, stare at the computer. look at the screen. listen to my poor quality recordings made with the 9 year old computer microphone, wishing that i could just easily record some music. people are weird about that though, you cant just play some music and record it. it's gotta be this whole personal time bullshit.
i shaved my head. maybe it will make people think i'm going a little crazy, i always hope for that effect.
anyway, the big realization to write about is that i've got to stop with the bullshit and be the church so to speak. live the message rather than talk it. i actually thought 'what would jesus do?' and applied it to my life with sarah. you see, even though i am personally responsible for murdering him, jesus still benefits me who is going to hell.
god i miss my ukulele. she was gonna buy me one for my birthday because that would have been the most thoughtful and meaningful gift i could get, but i only want a cheap one from herb david so i told her not to for some stupid reason. the good ones just sound like differently tuned classic guitars though, i guess i'm glad i said something. soon though.
i like that the first thing the US did after john bolton was appointed as ambassador to the UN was press to re-write the summit draft so that we dont have to help nations that are comitting genocide. three weeks before the summit too. jesus christ the balls.
sigh.
i just waste time, stare at the computer. look at the screen. listen to my poor quality recordings made with the 9 year old computer microphone, wishing that i could just easily record some music. people are weird about that though, you cant just play some music and record it. it's gotta be this whole personal time bullshit.
i shaved my head. maybe it will make people think i'm going a little crazy, i always hope for that effect.
anyway, the big realization to write about is that i've got to stop with the bullshit and be the church so to speak. live the message rather than talk it. i actually thought 'what would jesus do?' and applied it to my life with sarah. you see, even though i am personally responsible for murdering him, jesus still benefits me who is going to hell.
god i miss my ukulele. she was gonna buy me one for my birthday because that would have been the most thoughtful and meaningful gift i could get, but i only want a cheap one from herb david so i told her not to for some stupid reason. the good ones just sound like differently tuned classic guitars though, i guess i'm glad i said something. soon though.
i like that the first thing the US did after john bolton was appointed as ambassador to the UN was press to re-write the summit draft so that we dont have to help nations that are comitting genocide. three weeks before the summit too. jesus christ the balls.
sigh.