if you feel discouraged, theres been a lack of color here..

[what_a_waster_]

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somethings just missing and i cant figure out what.



i dont know what to do with myself. i need to do something. something needs to happen. something big. something significant. ive lost touch with my spirituality again and my inspiration is in some indian womans house in california. i think im going to read A Catcher in the Rye, i miss holden caulfield.

i think i might start waking up early.
i think i may start writing again.
i think i need a job to stay sane, not to mention to earn money.

i am not going to watch any t.v. for the next 5 days. i am going to drink only water. i am going to go running tommorow morning. if i dont give myself goals, then i wont have anything to do.

capture the flag tommorow night, by the way. you are welcome to come.

much love.