Damn what a day...
Man today has been one of those days...shouldn't have woken up today. Lol I didn't do anything I was planning on getting done, I have to do a shitload of math homework and write a paper on "the Idea of the University" for Engish tomorrow. Sounds like a serious BS job to me. Lol this is what I was talking about yesterday. We had another one of our debates in English today, we were all discussing what the whole concept of the university is. The truth is, I really don't care. It's weird how I used to really get into discussions like that. I just wanna have some fun here and learn some stuff that I've always wanted to learn. I really don't care whether I discover the meaning of life or how the universe interacts or why we exisit or any of that shit. Does that make me a shallow person? Does it mean I don't have a soul or that I'm denying it? What's so terrible about just taking life for what it is and enjoying it? My writing has not been that great in English lately...it pisses me off. I used to consider myself a fairly decent writer. I guess since my ideals are changing the way I express myself in words has to change to. I hope I get my mojo back soon lol. I used to be really good at writing all kinds of well thought out deep shit, but it just doesn't strike a chord anymore. It doesn't feel honest, like I'm simply writing for the grade. Looks like I gotta learn how to write again lol. Hey Carrie you're a great writer how do you do it?? lol that reminds me...in English some 'backstreet boy' (turtle neck sweater, designer glasses, perfect hair) was cracking jokes under his breath about the way I talk, so I was forced to give him "the stare of death." I hope it scared him. Lol I don't know why I put that in here that was dumb. Should I try out for the marching band next year? What do you guys think? Lol ok i gotta relax some before I have an anxiety attack or something...I'll be back tomorrow :)