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I've made a lot of mistakes this summer.. parties, lying to my father, getting peoples hopes up just to crush them to the ground.. but, I realize that none of the good things that I have going for me would have been possible if it weren't for these mistakes. I've strengthened several friendships (jessie, ryan, laura...), made new friends (Brian, Ryan, Andrea), and have been able to find out a lot about myself. I think that I am finally comfortable with who I have become.. I'm a lot stronger now-I can take care of myself. I've been working non stop lately. It wouldn't bother me much at all, because I really do enjoy my job if it wasn't for the fact that I'm only making 6.25. That's not getting me far at all, considering I have to buy all my food, personal items, and pay for my gas and car insurance. I talked with Jon for the first time in ages. He's such a cool kid, and it made me realize just how far I've pushed all of my friends away. In a way I feel horrible about that, but then again, I shouldn't be the only one making the attempt to keep together a friendship. I don't really have much else to say. Mom wants me to be with her in Texas-she doesn't feel like dad and I should be around each other for certain reasons, so I'm seriously thinking about taking up her offer.