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Useless insecurities
A mess of this horrible disease
I want you to break me, baby
I know you'd gladly agree
Love is like a promise
Delievered already broken
Just like our last kiss - -
Just like the 'I love you's left unspoken
A train wreck of self-conscienciousness
Oh, baby, Im such a mess.
You thought I was so strong,
Well, babe, I finally broke down
Looks as though I've proved you wrong
I can finally turn this around
You're my useless insecurities
My sickened, horrible disease
You're my obsessive self-consciencessness
The reason Im a mess.
Promise me you won't hurt me
Promise me you won't make me cry
Promise me that you will see --
When I, internally, begin to die.
Promise me that you'll be there
Whenever I may call
Promise me that it doesn't matter where
You'll catch me when I fall
Promise me you won't promise the stars
Just to let me down
Promise me you'll forget the scars
And that you'll always be around
Promise me you'll never have another
And that mine will be the only hand you hold.
Because, we'll always have each other
If you stay true to the things you've told.
And this'll all be enjoyed
If you just promise me that you won't be "just another boy"
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Whining
Hmm, lately I've been thinking. Im way scared to go see Missa &David...Im scared, cuz I know if I hang out with David - I'll end up leaving Missa out...and we'll be busy. I feel horrible. And I dont know, but I swear if I dont see him, Im going to cry. Im going to cry when I see Mello, when I hug her, when I see David, and when/if we kiss. Erg, I unno...cuz that makes me think about not seeing David, cuz I dont want Mello to get mad...or feel left out, even though Micah is gunna be there. Err. Im a loser with no life who is depressed all the fucking time. Seven more days anyways :] Im thinking about staying in Walled Lake for a week, and Westland for a week...not sure. Whatev.