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big>How I feel right now.
I'm basically here with nothing but memories. When I'm not sitting in my room, crying. I'm working. The only place I feel welcomed. I hate it. I am so disgusted with myself and almost everyone I call my friend. There will be some certain people I won't be visiting while I'm in Michigan, just for the sheer fact that I'm not going to be stirring shit up. If you honestly wanna know if I'm going to be seeing you, then you can comment. Because as of now, there are about ten people I wanna see, and one of them, I wont be able to see, cuz she'll be in Cali. Which really sucks. I'm planning on getting fucked up everyday that I'm in Westland. I'm going to be just like my mom, and Im going to drink my problems away. Im going to smoke pot every fucking day and Im going to have a fucking ball. Now, honestly, if you are going to comment about how its "bad for me" or what the fuck ever...don't even bother using your pathtic little fingers to type out those four engrossing words 'Thats-Bad-For-You', becauseeee, quite frankly, I really DO NOT care what you have to think about me or the things I do. Because I've realized in the past few days how unbelievably unreliable some of you are, and how some of you can just lie straight to my face and not give a fuck. It quite honestly makes me sick to my fucking stomach. Just thinking about how much I trusted some of you fucks is enough to make a girl slit her throat. Ive found there are only two things to be sure of in my life...disappointment and unworthiness. And Iwould like to thank you assholes for the fucking time you let me WASTE. Disgusting.
But enough raving...Consider this :] I DON'T FUCKING CARE ABOUT YOU ANYMORE :D